Freedom: Thanks for your kind words. It is criminal. It’s cruel. Their goal is to break a persons spirit and will to survive outside the org so that they come crawling back. I’d rather be flogged before going back.
Tall Penguin: ((((hugs)))) I’m sorry you had a lousy day last week. Thank you for the reminder. I’m tired of crying. I swear to myself every time that I am not going to let this bother me. I am going to be strong and not cry. It just doesn’t work too well when I keep getting smacked with reminders of the stoooopid cult.
Carla: thank you. This woman was so nice. She was a little more liberal. Very cool family. I’ve known them forever. They had another loss in the fall. Her brother in law died suddenly. So that means, that her sister now has lost both her husband and her sister in one year.
Gregor: good suggestion actually. I have two toddlers at home at the moment, but you know, you’re right.
Thx for the encouragement.
I wish I could get to the point where it doesn’t get me down.
The ironic part is:
The reason I was looking in the obits to begin with: I drove by my moms house this week and could tell that she isn’t back from Florida yet. My husband worked with her neighbor last night and she confirmed that, plus said she hasn’t heard from her. So, I started wondering if my family would even tell me if something happened to my mom and thought to myself I should start checking the obits. And lo and behold. Talk about weird.
The sadder part is I really can’t help but think that no, they won’t tell me if something happens. I just stopped existing to them. I’m invisible. It’s all like a bad dream.
BS of Memphis
