tired of not existing (page 2)

lovelylil

sorry to hear what happened. I know it hurts. I was in the same place about a year ago and would just cry all day. It was so hard to loose all your "Friends" in one single day. But you know what, I realized that they were not true friends after all. They are simply brainwashed drones and I thank God every day for letting me know this so I could get out of there fast. As I was once a drone too. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. It takes time but like someone said, this will pass. LIfe will get so much better for you. We all know because we experience this. You will make many real friends. You have to be your own best friend right now and start building a real support system. Volunteer work is good, or get to really know your nieghbors, or get back in contact with family. There are lots of things you can do to uplift your spirit. But I know it still HURTS LIKE HELL! So, I am very Sorry. Many HUGS to you! Lilly

BlackSwan of Memphis

Kw: thank you

green dawn: I’m trying to do just that, it’s partly that my entire history of everything evaporated. You know when something happens to someone you know and you think of all the people that you should tell. It’s like someone just whited out my name. Gone, Poof! I am making new friends, and am so lucky to have some wonderful people that I met through our meet up. It’s starting over…

Lady Liberty: Thank you for the thoughts. I feel really, really bad for this person’s family. I can’t believe I just didn’t have a chance to give them hugs. To tell them I care and I’m so sorry. Y’know. My oldest sister was really close with this person. I can’t even hug her and say damn I’m sorry. This is not fair. I love you, I am sorry. (I could probably go on and on about this for days) Thank you lady.

Midwich: I’m trying to keep it in and as green dawn said look forward. I guess sometimes it just gets to be way too much.

Lovelylil: It does hurt like hell, you got that right. I am sorry you had to go through it. I am sorry that any of us and all of us have had to go through it.

It just isn’t fair.

BSofM

anewme

Megan, I dont know how old you are, but at my age EVERYBODY IS DROPPING LIKE FLIES! I emailed my ex husband and inquired about many of my old friends. Two have died. Babies are now 6 years old. How times flies.

I decided to work on my attitude this summer and really get in touch with my heart and center deeply about my beliefs and where they stand......and at summers end I am going to write to my relatives and defy the dfing order to not communicate with my JW loved ones.

Hopefully they will read my heartfelt letters of love and words that I am thinking of them and miss them and how unfortunate all this distance is between us.

Im going to do this for ME, because I will not let the Tower dictate to me who I can love.

Anewme

Star Moore

Meagan....

My best friend of my 1st 15 years as a JW..son died. He was in his early thirties. The funeral was right next to my house practically. So she called me and sent me the paper of the announcement.. When she called, she said 'come back to Jehovah'. But she called after it was over. But at least she called.

Hard to stay away...from here...something about it.

greendawn

Black Swan I guess you grew up as a JW and they are all that you knew until you left?

They were manipulated by the FDS into thinking that by shunning the ex JWs they are doing them good by pressuring them to return to the mother org and to salvation. This is of course very hypocritical and twisted but the naive dubs believe it.

BlackSwan of Memphis

Black Swan I guess you grew up as a JW and they are all that you knew until you left?

Yes. My life, like so many others, was all about the org. Everything I did, especially after I got a little older and started my family, was for the Organization. If they said jump I'd jump. I'd feel horribly guilty for missing meetings. I'd think often about my kids and their future if something happened to me and their 'worldly' dad had to raise them.

Absolutely everything about my life was about the ORg. You are right it is hypocritical and they are naive.

I was a dub once too so I can easily verify that.

Sorry Star about what happened. I'm glad she called you at least.

BSoM

rebel8

You do exist. Remember that.

JWs are a tiny minority of the earth's population. If a few members of the human race shun you, there are plenty of others who won't. Easy to prove--just go to a major sport event, streak, and see how many people ignore you now.

No, just kidding. Seriously though, fill your life with people who don't ignore you.

alt <----- There could be a whole universe of people out there for you, but the only ones you're noticing are the ones who ignore you!

BlackSwan of Memphis

anewme: Go girl! I understand. And those that you love are worth the fight, aren't they?

rebel: I've never actually read that one, I'll have to get it and read it. Thank you for reminding me that I exist. I really feel like I am in the twilight zone.

Y'know ya wake up one morn and go to work and everyone acts like they have never met you. Your family, loved ones, neighbors who ever, all of a sudden don't know you.

Freaky.

Haha, I should streak. One of my sis has season tickets to the Red Wings. Lace up some skates strip down and away I go, that should get them to notice me. I'll get banned from future games...

Hm not worth it. I'd rather see Shanahan play.

BSoM

prophecor

MsMcDucket

Blackswan, I sorry that you are feeling down today. I can identify and sympathize with your pain. I hope as the day goes on that you will start to feel better. Being shunned by family and friends sucks! Go beat the hell out of a pillow or something!

I'm so sorry! ((((hugs)))

tired of not existing

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