Aniron: Many of the people on the ex-Christian message boards used to feel the same way as you do now. They speak about how they used to feel that they they 'belong to Christ'. They changed their minds. Notice the following quotes from them:
"I spent less than 10 years as a born again Christian. I am angry at myself for succumbing to such ignorance."
"It is the testimonies of those who have walked away from the insanity that should be shouted from the rooftops."
"Angry at myself for being bamboozled.'
"All the abuses and absurdities I witnessed in the evangelical church."
"They promise you 'joy unspeakable and full of glory' - it doesn't happen, the whole thing is a sham."
"Deep disgust that that I was naive enough to be brainwashed by religious nonsense for so long."
"I am still furious that I was lied to for years.'
"Stunned at how bitter and angry I am."
"All the emotional and spiritual abuse that I suffered."
"Power hungry control freaks."
"All of my abuse issues with Christianity."
"I am supposed to be saved but I am numb. I just want to breathe but the weight is crushing me."
"Sometimes it hurts all the time."
'Another part of me was always terrified that something bad would happen to me- that God would punish me."
"It represented prison."
"Chained and shackled."
"Could it get any worse?"
Of course, not all the ex-Christian posters on the message boards feel this way. Some of them say that they enjoyed their lives as Christians, but that they left because they discovered that they were believing in myths. If you google 'leaving Christianity' there are a wealth of ex-Christian resources that can help you to see why so many Christians are becoming disillusioned with their faith and leaving. They also reveal the happy and satisfying lives they are now living apart from Christianity.
