Dear Brenda,
Recently a friend of mine.......his wife died. I was out of town, we were very close........when I got home I was horrified to hear the news and that I was not there for him.
I called him at 3am when I had read the email. It was about a week since the funeral. I asked him how he was doing. He said he was doing ok.........she had ill health for awhile..........and he had already buried her so many times in his head.
So your comment about losing yours to a cult.......is what made me share this with you. Sometimes death is not as final as physical death.......our grieving of a loss can be how you already felt it. It does not make it any easier, but your grief got taken in tiny chunks throughout your life.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))
purps