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RichieRich

(sorry hit enter a little early)

So, I looked at my cell phone today, and I had a voicemail from my mother.

I called my voicemail and listened to it:

"Hi Richie, this is your mother, just wanted to say I hope you're doing ok, and I love you. Um I guess that's it."

Well, for some reason, those few words hit some emotional cord in me. I just started bawling, right there in my car. My big, gangster, tattoed, pierced, bald self just sitting in my car crying.

I wasn't happy to hear from her, I was more angry that she dare try and rear her head in my life after this long. Its been months you know.

And I'm just confused. Part of me wants to call her and cuss her out. Part of me wants to drive straight to my parents house and hug her.

But I can't do either. I feel like I've got to just remain seperate. Avoid the situation.

I'm confused.

nicolaou

I wasn't happy to hear from her

Yes you were. Go see your Mum Richie.

The blame for all those crappy feelings you have, the frustration, the confusion, the need to 'cuss someone out' - the responsibility for all that negativity lies with that evil little cult we all have in common.

Do you think your mother would be behaving this way if she hadn't had her mind fucked over by the Watchtower? Go see her Richie, believe it or not you're still her little boy and she needs you, there's a big Richie shaped hole in heart. If things don't work out what have you really lost? Be patient with her and give yourself permission to feel bloody furious when you leave her house - mothers do that!

Whatever you decide I wish you luck, we all need love. Right man?

Nic'

monkeyshine

Yeah, it's your mom dude. You know what's right. Go see her.

If you don't want to do it for her, do it for yourself because you know deep down it's soothing to be near her, once in a while at least.

Alligator Wisdom

Do you believe what she said? If so, then in your own words...

Part of me wants to drive straight to my parents house and hug her.

Alligator Wisdom (aka Brother NOT Exerting Vigorously by WTS standards)

misspeaches

Richie go see your mum. I know there is so much hurt there and its scary because you don't want to open up the wounds but this could be the first step in healing your relationship...

What-A-Coincidence

my heart goes out to ya biguy. remember, it's not your mom's fault, it's the cults. see her. otherwise you will regret it.

wednesday

Don't let those people take your mom away from you without a fight. she is reachig out to you. It may not be much, but she wants to see you. this is a normal and healthy ; -words i'd never use in the same sentence with jws, or the wts.

I know, she is shunning you and now she is jerking your chain-should you go running back? you aren't groveling, you are just saying 'hi mom" and that's all. You may win her without a word, ritchie. () love is a powerful emotion. If you have not read the new book "'going under cover to rescue my daughter.." , read it. it's a short read, and it shows that familes can still powerfuly love other despite this hateful cult. love can win. maybe not right away, but it can win.

weds

evita

This is an emotional roller coaster ride of hope, sadness, and despair. I know because I went through it with my mom for over 20 years. Keep trying with your mother; losing touch can do so much damage to the mother/child bond. The more time goes by, the harder it is to repair the relationship. Hugs to you Richie, you're a sweet guy underneath all those tattoos.

vitty

Do you ever go round to see your dad ?

I can be honest here.

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