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Xnived Shadow

Dear All,

To clear up all the questions out there (honestly i was excepting this many responses) I was raised a JW. At the age of 17 one of my friends was treated very unfairly by the body of elders. She never talked about it but something happend between her and a Elder. She disapeared shortly after I havnt seen her since. After that I gradually started to rebel more, I stopped Aux pioneering, I quit my job and got a job I wanted (full-time). I sold my honda civic and I purchased a Honda 900rr sport bike. My congregation started to alienate me. I began to miss meetings on a regular basis. I lost my respect for elders, my parents, and myself. So I talked to a Navy Recruiter one day and his silver tounge (lol) made his lifestyle sound nice. So I joined up. I signed up for the avionics program and flunked out. So i was a non-rate(anyone without a job ranking) for a year. I then signed up for a RN course onboard my ship.(Mainly because there were some beautiful women taking that class) hey what can I say I was underway for a year gimme a break. So anyway I got really intrested IN THE CLASS and my teacher suggested for me to try out for the Corps. So I did........1 year later Im sticking a cotarizing rod in a marine while his blood squirts in my face and Im thinking Jehovah hates me. I never was DFed and I never went back to meetings. I m out of the Navy now. Some people say wow you are strong but really guys Im kind of a coward I never faced a Judicial commitee like most of you and my family just thinks I vanished for six years and worked abroad. And the young girl that went missing that I never stuck up for....hmmm I aint gonna lie I still do a search on the net for her every now and then...hope your well Sara.

purplesofa

i hope you find sara

purps

gordon d

Cool story.. thanks for letting us know a little more about you.

Do you still ride? We've got some open track days coming up soon. (Texas World Speedway, Motorsports Ranch, OakHill Raceway, and MSR Houston) My new bike is just about ready...I even coughed up the $$$ for Ohlins suspension on both ends. Love to have you come over and show you what it feels like to have a 40 year-old Grandpa from Texas hand you your a$$!!!!

Abandoned

I then signed up for a RN course onboard my ship.(Mainly because there were some beautiful women taking that class) hey what can I say I was underway for a year gimme a break.

Hey buddy, it's OK. You made it out. I just have to say in response to what I quoted above that you don't have to feel guilty that you are attracted to women and that you like being around those you consider pretty. I hate that organization so much for so many things, but this is definitely one of the main reasons. They taught us such a screwed up view of sex and sexual attraction that I feel guilty about finding someone else attractive. Plus, due to all the repressed feelings, I don't have a clue how to even start a relationship. I'm forty years old and I don't know how to deal with women on a dating level.

gordon d

Abandoned,
Don't feel like you're the only bull in the barn on that one!!!

I think that the best advice came from Jack Nicholson's explanation of understanding women, when he said,
I think of a man, then I take away reason and accountability....

Oh crap.... I bet I'm gonna Pay for that one!!!

IT'S A JOKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S A JOKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S A JOKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S A JOKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Abandoned

LMAO!

That's two... :-D

vitty

I never was DFed and I never went back to meetings

If you join the army ,navy or any services you are automatically reguarded as Disassociating yourself, so there is no tribunal and they dont have to notify you.

this happened my family member, no one knew for sure what his status was, as we werent in his hall, but we heard the gossip . Anyway it was true he was classed as DAed.

Stezza

Welcome to the board.

Firstly you need to lose friends that tell you that your life is pathetic, they are not needed.

I hate war but my heart goes out to young men such as yourself that put your self out there. I personally believe that when the government goes to war the first on the frontline should the sons of those in govenment. Maybe they would think twice. Doubt it.

What is important now is your emotional health. Make sure you are aware of PTSD symptoms so if you need counselling you can get it, and do not delay if you need to talk.

The only person that knows you is you and God, no one else can pass judgement on what you have done in your life, only you know if you have acted with honour with the knowledge you had at the time and forgive yourself.

If you know Sara's surname and her last location, maybe save towards a private dectective if you have found googling unsuccessful so far.

There may be an ex-jw meet up near you or near where you used to live, someone in the Meet Up may have some information. This could be a cheaper first option then the PI.

Please keep coming on here and reading as you will realise that this organisation has some real problems and you are not wrong to have a cognitive malfunction with what you were told and what you saw around in the congregation and on top of that the emotional blackmail that it is the truth. No matter how bad it is it is the truth.

I never had a JC and reading about them and about how you are treated as reproved or DF'd etc, I sure am glad. So I would not worry about that most would say you had a lucky escape and that they are quite psycholoically damaging, nobody needs that.

Look after yourself and look forward ot hearing from you again

Lady Liberty

Dear Xnived,

WELCOME!!! You have come to the right place to find relief, understanding and many, many friends who will truely care about you!! Please stay, and soon you will see many have had simular tormenting feelings, but because of research and the help of having friends here, have worked through it all and are now happy. I gaurentee you will feel better here..so stick around!!

Sincerely,

Lady Liberty

Forscher

Welcome to the board Xnived.

First off let me tell you that you've stumbled onto a great career path if you still like the thought of becoming an RN. With the projected shortfall in RNs to fill the needed slots the prospects for a rewarding and well paid career are better than never before. If I'd been in better shape I would've gone that path myself! So I would encourage you to make that a goal if you like it as you seem to feel you do.

I know you feel kind of rough right now. With two major life changes of the magnitude you've gone through (both leaving the Witnesses and spending a tour of duty in a war zone) anybody would feel like they've been through the mill! Your "friend's" comment about your "pathetic life" sure didn't help matters I am sure. But really, if that "friend" is a dub, I might ask who really is leading a "pathetic life?"

If he/she is, then consider a few things. as a dub, that one is basically forbidden a real education if they remain loyal to the organization and, therefore, condemned to a lower paying job. You, on the other hand, have many opportunities before you and even the service you are now giving your country will carry with it benefits which will help you to go to college and become an RN, or what ever you want, and be able to live your own life and support a family well when you decide to start one of your own. You are now able to live life on your own terms, rather than have janitors dictate how you may live it. How can the two possibly compare?

If your friend is not a Dub, then consider his view his problem, not yours. Stick around. Work on making quality friends who will encourage you to reach out for your goals. That is one of the secrets of success, making friends who can give you the know how and support you in your pursuit of a life well spent.

Forscher

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