I would have the same quandary if I went door to door looking like I wanted to endorse the Watchtower's religion by looking like a follower, attending like a follower, getting counted like a follower, and then wanting people to know the truth about the Watchtower's totally dishonest, cruel, heavy-handed, perverted, hypocritical ways. Not to offend you since I don't know - Why do you choose to live the way of a double agent. Even that is offensive to say to you, sorry. I think you should reconsider being "In the Truth" (the word truth is an English term and English dictionaries do not allow for that use, how can one be in something like "truth"?) and wanting people to be un-misled. May I suggest: QUIT. Give NO reason. Even that implies that you still answer to them. Send them a letter condeming what you want to condemn and/or just give them a legal warning against contact, harrasment, slander, infringment on your liberites, and TRESPASSing on your property by them, their agents, assignees... and if they do come come to your home call the police, show them the WRITTEN WARNING and watch them go to jail to join other criminal elements. But do not include your resignation. You should not answer to them and they do not answer to you.
SirNose...
I feel this way too. I will add though, and this may be caustic:
I get real tired and frustrated when I hear about people like you going door to door, as hypocrites, basically endorsing the terroristic nature of this fraudulent religion JUST BY BEING AT THEIR DOOR WITH OTHER JWS WHO DO BELIEVE THE LETHAL LITTER-ATURE. Then coming here, where "apostates" gather and audaciously asking if you should warn the householder. It's ridiculous, to say the least.
If you truly do not endorse the policies, doctrines and such of this organization, HOW CAN YOU GO TO DOORS WITH A CLEAR CONSCIENCE? Trying to recruit people.
But if you can clearly do this then you best not stop by my door. Because now every jw is subject to my inquisition. You Sir, got off easy that day. Your fear froze your spirit. Your spirit is telling you to SET IT FREE.
It's easy to do. Stop living the life of a hypocrite. That IS the life of every jw. The life of a hypocrite. How does it feel to wake up every day and have to put on that ol' jw mask, again? When are you going to toss it?
Yes, it's harsh and caustic. It has to be brother. It has to be. You higher ranking male members of the Watchtower need reality slapped upon you, not well wishes. Yes, you will LOSE PRECIOUS 'THINGS'. That is frightening, I know. I lost too. Yet you must experience THAT type of fear brother. You should not think that you are somehow exempt.
I don't expect you or anyone else to hold the same thoughts, feelings and views on the matters concerning this organization. I do expect them to be respected.
Just think about it as you lay on your pillow tonight.
sKally