I have considered all of your posts, and even asked Jesus the questions you reccomended.
His answers were that He is not only in my mind, yes and no, it does not matter to Him if I die.
As far as reducing God into something other than He is, I do admit that I don't fully understand Him, but I do know Him personally. I can tell you that He made us like He is (not the other way around) in as far as that He has His own mind, heart, soul, and will. He created us this way to be His children, and has given us much to understand Him, such as:
Our own mind heart soul and will.
The capcity to make decisions.
The knowledge of good and evil.
Children to raise (which helps us understand Him).
The ability to create and destroy.
Lives full of experiences, both good and bad.
A means of communicating to Him.
And other things which He gives to His children (those born of the Spirit of God) such as:
Understanding of righteouss judgement.
Love, which He puts in our hearts after we go to Him.
The desire to be righteous.
Various abilities such as healing others, authority over demons, understanding of the future, which come as He wills.
Anyways, I hope these things further your knowledge of God. Please remember, if you ask Him to show you, He may very well.