2014, a hundred years since Christ's supposed invisible presence began, has come and gone. It is now 2018.
You are now 75 years old and the world is packed with free information. You can find out anything you want to, and infact, you have to use the internet every day just to shop and bank and a lot of the things you need to do. On the virtual newspaper, you read the latest WTBTS scandal that has unfolded. The estimated figure of the amount of JWs who died over the blood transfusion ban, estimated at one and a half million, has become world wide knowledge since it was revealed that one of the GB had regular transfusions to keep him alive during 2010. You realise that was the time the blood transfusion ban was totally lifted due to 'new light' from Jehovah!! Finally 2 and 2 make 4. You've had quite a shock, but nothing compared to other shocks......like the WTBTS selling arms all over the world. The WTBTS fighting the tobacco ban that governements have been attempting to enforce, because they believe in 'free will'. But it turned out they were major share holders in a tobacco company. You found out they used to be in the UN and so many other things......just too many.
You realise that it has been 25 years now since you saw your four children, two boys and two girls. They are all in their forties now and they have nine children between them, and you have never seen any of them. Twenty five years ago, your children came to you and tried to tell you the truth about the WTBTS but you, and your wife, refused to listen. You turned all four in for apostasy and they were disfellowshiped. You have shunned them for twenty five long years. They tried to contact you, by letters, by telephone, but you refused to reply.
You and your wife have had virtually no conversation today. The world is a different colour now. Everything you expected has disappeared, and your shared depression is like a couple who have suffered a miscarriage. Your future, your shared future has been miscarried and your horizon.....has simply slid away into nothingness.....in fact worse than nothingness......it has slipped away into a deep black hole....six feet deep.
Your whole life, you turned down opportunities. You could have gone to university, but you chose to full time pioneer. You could have been promoted at work, but that would have meant working overtime, and worse, on meeting nights. You could have had more money, gone on holidays, celebrated family occassions and holidays with your whole family.........so many happy times lost.......so much time gone......so many chances wasted.
It is cold today. Infact it is Christmas Eve. You can see the happy shinning lights in your neighbours homes, on their Christmas trees. Someone deep inside you discover about yourself that you have always wanted a magical Christmas Tree. You want to turn the fire on but.....wil the meagre state pension stretch to pay for it? You dare not.
You notice your wife has red eyes. She wraps a blanket around herself and sits quietly on the setee hugging a hot water bottle. You know her arthritis will suffer if you don't put the heating on.....but that was all supposed to get better soon.....after Armageddon......because....Armageddon WAS coming....it WAS....and now... Now you both know, and you don't like what you know. You KNOW you were fooled! You both KNOW that you lost and wasted your lives, your hopes, your dreams, your family.
You think you see disdain for you in your wife's eyes, and infact, you see her in another light also. How could SHE have been SO stupid? How could YOU have been so Stupid.
The truth hurts, as all is lost. Really ALL is lost! Life, time, time and life. After all, that's all we really get, and it took you both 75 years to work it out.
How it hurts! You stand looking outside at the grey, cold evening, knowing only darkness lies ahead.
So, what should this JW do now? How would YOU feel and what would you do? There may well come a time when many a JW is faced with a similar scenario.