Caine: (((((hugs))))))
The thing is, if the depression is being caused by feeling that you aren't doing enough, you never will be able to do enough! The WTS teaches a religion of "works" but if you study your Bible without the WT glasses on you will find that there is nothing we can do to earn our salvation (Ephesians 2). It has already been done for us by Christ's death! What could be possibly add to that supreme act that would have merit in God's eyes? There is no one righteous. All our works of righteousness are like filthy rags (or used menstrual pads, to quote the unpoetic NWT) in Jehovah's eyes. Once we have accepted him as our Saviour, then we are motivated by love to do good works to show our faith (James).
You have a unique opportunity to open your eyes to the truth of the lie of the WT Society...get out while you can!
As AK Jeff said:
Before you go back to Emerald City, make sure it is a belief system that is worthy of your life. Watch Logan's Run. Read 1984.
Chopper: Welcome! Thanks for sharing your story and we hope to hear more from you. So glad that you have found Jesus!