Although I don't go to meetings anymore, I'm inactive, never was disfellowshipped, I still have a "spiritual side to me", something that is deeply rooted in. On one side, I see errors the Watchtower makes, and on the other side I take what's good about them, and that's why I don't fit in with them. I don't meet their standards, nor do they meet mine. I'm not interested being trapped in another religion either because they aren't any better than the JW's.
Just like eating and drinking, and wanting to have fun is normal, I'm also interested in God and prophecies that relate to today and what it could mean for me in my lifetime. Maybe that's was why I joined the JW Organization. At first, they seemed to have the answers to just about everything, but time showed that they were wrong on many issues. Maybe additional time will prove otherwise?
Unlike zealous Witnesses, I don't lean only to one side. I try to make my life as balanced as possible, juggling with a certain amount of spirituality, and pleasures of life.
Often, this left me nowhere because both worlds don't mix too well.