by OnTheWayOut 22 Replies latest jw friends
Hello Doubting Bro.,
I need to keep going because I refuse to allow this stupid religion to steal her from me. I will fake it for the rest of my life if I have to because I just can't imagine living without her.
I totally understand. I hope I wasn't misunderstood. Do what you must my brother knowing you've got company. Your wife sounds special. It's great that you're refusing to let the org. destroy your family as it has so many. Hang in there!
Respectfully yours,
Nvr
Thanks bro. I understood exactly where you are coming from.
Can I stop the org from destroying my family? I just don't know, but I'll fight to my last breath.
Some days I think this place is the only thing keeping me sane! You hang in there too!
Nvgnbk, thanks for some encouragement
I'm saying just quit going already! Be as nice as pie to the brothers. You have no axe to grind with them. What's the
worst that can happen? It feels so great to not go. And it gets easier with every passing day.
I am reaching my goals. I agree with the above. I have been holding out for the same reasons that Doubting Bro states,
for the wife's sake. I believe it's getting to the point where I have prepared her for the change in attitude. I started out
fading to avoid a JC, but I feel now that it won't come (or if I am wrong, more meetings won't change that). Now I am
fading to prepare the wife for the changing attitudes. "Her husband is weak, avoid her." I think she will be ready. Most
of her JW friends will be able to associate with her, but without me. Also, I have been going thru the motion of "trying" to
go to some meetings so that the wife feels confident that I am not an evil apostate, and she doesn't have to turn me in. I am
confident that, as long as I don't read Ray Franz books in front of her, she can tell the brothers nothing when they ask.
After this CO visit, I will set a firm date to quit going.
While I could stop today, I've faded so fast that a couple more months won't matter much. We really are only talking about
3 or 4 evening meetings and 4 or 5 weekend meetings- before I reach ZERO.
Doubting Bro, I really feel for your situation. Try setting those firm goals. Actually monitor how often you go to meetings and
cut back. Set dates to do something by.
Glad things are going well, but look out for the shepparding call that I will bet is coming when the new CO get there.
Going from an elder to inactive in less than a year will guarantee a visit.
I am going to totally blow off the CO. I said before that I would insist on my wife being there. Forget it, I will totally
insist that I don't want to speak to the CO. When they say, "Just give us a couple of minutes." NO, GOTTA GO, I HAVE
AN APPOINTMENT.
