My lovely girlfriend and I sat down over a homecooked meal, and discussed the pros and cons of attending the memorial.
I decided, with her support, that we would attend.
I spent years of my life pretending to be a Witness to please my mother. When I left the Witnesses, my mother said some hurtful things.
And those things really hurt me... for a while. But I established myself as my own person, developed my own relationships, and have gotten a good start on my own life.
I don't know that I want to hurt my mother back, but I do want to make it abundantly clear to her, my grandmother, and all the members of my former congregation, that RichieRich is alive and kicking.
And I think that walking into the Kingdom Hall, dressed respectfully in a suit, yet with full piercing jewelry intact, and with Erika wearing something classy that steals the brother's eyes, and draws glares from the humble sisters, will be just the thing to send that message to my mother.
I don't plan on partaking or making a disturbance. I think my presence will make things uneasy enough.
And I don't really know how to eloquently express in words my purpose for going. I want to make a scene, without making a scene. I want to make people rethink their actions over the past year. And I want to show everybody that I'm still kicking.
I don't know why I felt compelled to post this here, I guess I'm just looking for some support, or ideas, or something.
My mind is all jumbled up here recently.