For the OP, most of us have come to certain conclusions gradually. It took me 25 years! Just to accept the idea that the Bible was an interesting book of myths, stories, some history mixed in and some characters that probably lived and have had greatly embroidered stories about them. It started with questioning the WT, but saying I would NEVER deny God/Christ/etc. Time goes on, you grow, read, think. . .a couple of epiphanies, some major contradictions. . .
I came to a point one day and said "If *I* were God" this is the way I would do things. Then I looked at some of the record and it occurred to me (after many discussions here, in particular) that no one could have gotten a 'nice' God like me any cred. Then I realized that MEN created God, in their image, to get their agendas taken care of.
I don't think that it was necessarily done in an evil grasping way. Perhaps it started with good intentions, as a tool to motivate and then it became this huge convoluted story that is debated, defined and defiled.
Ancient Greece and Rome had their gods and myths. Gone now. It has been pointed out that the God of the Bible has been behind talking animals, magic fruit, magical powers, death of infants, sanctioned rape, pillaging and other things that we (as christians) did our best to ignore or justify. After a while, don't y'all get tired of justifying this god who kills most everyone-or plans to send them to hell?