I think maybe I just don't really place a high value on sex.
Crumpet, someday, you will make love to someone and it will change forever your view of sex. One night stands keep you from getting what you really want.
I have had more than I want to admit to. I think if you do it safely so that you don't get any sickness physically, you will work out what you really want .....a relationship that satisfies all your needs......mentally, physically, and emotionally.....spiritually as well. You will build blocks little by little building your self esteem and getting to know yourself better. And while you do that you will let those wonderful parts of you be open to someone special and deserving.
Then its like a fine wine.......you will do without the cheap stuff and hold out for the best.
with love,
purps