Good day all
My spirits have lifted a little. I cried a lot last night and this morning - they say tears of sadness are healing tears, they have a different chemical composition to 'ordinary' or happy tears. CoCo, your talking about theatre took me back to thoughts of pantomime. I help with the lighting at a local panto each year. It lasts for one week - 9 performances - and for that week, it seems that real life is suspended - everyone is captivated by what I term as 'the spirit of pantomime'. When my counsellor asked me to describe exactly what that spirit was, I couldn't and I still can't - it's the whole package, the cameraderie, the storylines, everything - I know I need to try keep some of that that spirit all year round.
I changed my avatar to the theatrical symbol to remind me of the spirit of pantomime. The happy mask always overlays the sad mask - a reminder that like you said, we all have rainy days and possibly hidden pain, we can't hide it all the time.
Happy cooking and good luck with the breadmaking!!