Keep reading. Read these boards, maybe something will reach your heart, or
cause your "Disgust meter" to peak with the WTS. Read websites that discuss the
dates, history, blood, disfellowshipping, NWT, changing doctrines.
Read any (really all) of the following books and look for more:
Crisis of Conscience by Ray Franz
In Search of Christian Freedom by Ray Franz
Combating Cult Mind Control by Steve Hassan
Releasing the Bonds by Steve Hassan
Captives of a Concept by Don Cameron
I am currently reading a book that has nothing to do with religion, but is eye-opening
called Mistakes Were Made (But Not by Me) by Carol Tavris and Elliot Aronson.
Go to the "15 minute guide to truth" at jwfacts.com then look at the rest.
If you really don't know how to escape, these will sustain you. You can ask on this
board how others have managed. They love advice-giving. Weigh it carefully, as it
might not be perfect advice for your situation.