As long as those cigs are Marlboro.
Warlock
by juni 74 Replies latest jw friends
As long as those cigs are Marlboro.
Warlock
Hello Juni
The PHD is in History, it has always been a love of mine- am in the midst of writing my final draft to be submitted november/december time- stressful but at least it is pretty much all i do, except of course for meetings :-) and conducting the odd class (though the semester is over so i am just writing full time now)
My parents weren't really given much choice when i worked my ass off all summer between HS and Uni to pay my own tuition and worked all the way though.
I was a nerd, band geek, popular till I dated one of the biggest geeks in my grade! Quiet, sneaky, closet alcoholic like many others.
I went on to university right out of high school for one year. I had no clue what I wanted to major in. Been in and out of school since then. Back in, majoring in English at community college to get my GPA back up to par. Will transfer back to uni next year sometime, double major in English and Marketing.
I goofed off all throughout high school. Drinking beers, smoking dope and macking up babes since there was no point pursuing an education with Armageddon right around the corner. Because I wanted to live through Armageddon. MACKING UP WORLDLIES, POUNDING BEERS AND SMOKING REEFER. If that isnt the most convoluted, pitifully stupid reasoning ever, I don't know what is.
Now I'm paying for it because I'm thirty years old and still upgrading high school courses so I can go to collage.
GBL
I was a freak with no real friends who dressed in ill-fitting garage sale clothes. I had bad grades and no direction. Wait! I did have a direction! My mom conditioned me to graduate from high school, get married right away, and start having kids immediately (the man is supposed to support the wife and children), which is exactly what I did, contrary to everyone else's advice. I ended up divorced from a deadbeat and living on welfare and help from other family. Totally different from my goal of being a full time pioneer (no job of course) and happily married with kids. Mine was a dream of the '50's. Not very practical in the '90's!
I'm in my late 30's and in college since age 31. Others wonder when I will ever get done, but I'm a single mom in college. Do the math! It just takes us longer. At least we are doing it!
Now, I am thoroughly spiritually confused. Raised in "truth" but left two years ago. I think I'm a pagan but not sure. The witch at the witch store (my name for those cool pagan shops) said that many pagans and witches came out of the JW religion. It can ruin a person for Christianity. I sure do believe that! So, I'm reading up on Wicca while going to the Assembly of God church in town and studying up on mainline Christianity. I figure that one will stick more than the other. I want to take what I like out of everything and discard what I don't want. You know, make up my own faith/lifestyle from scratch. All of the naturalness of a pagan life sounds so nice, but I can't seem to buy into the god/goddess thing.
I was raised a dub but when myself and my 4 sisters were persecuted by my dad to a scary point, we quit going to meetings but studied all the time with my mom ("paraidse lost "was my first one) *realises he's an old bastard*. In about the 9th grade I met some "brothers" in my metalshop and got to know them, got invited to meetings, I went to most all of them but I snuck so my dad wouldn't know, my dad finally found out and didn't do anything, in time my mom and sisters started going again. So, most of my time in school from about the 5th or 6th grade up to the 9th I wasn't a witness so to speak.
I took up pole-vaulting in track before I met the brothers and was on the track team. I was a good vaulter but had to quit once I started to go to meetings and I regret the hell out of the fact that I could have had some good memories of excelling in track.
Long story short, I was never wordly so to speak, always believed the "truth" and shortly after I graduated and married at 18.....just a pup. Most of my life I have been married.
I could have been popular in school but I was a good dub and didn't cheat....cept for getting drunk and chewing snuff with my good association I had with the brothers. Many brothers were good dubs cept for drinkin mostly.
I guess I was cheated out of dating, sports, fellowship with good wordly people(and many were good people). I was socially repressed because of not fellowshipping with the world and was nieve as are many dubs who toe the line like they are supposed to.
I miss what life I could of had, I regret lack of dreams, goals, and education. I prolly woulda been a damn millionaire had I not believed the end was nigh.
Thats my story. Now then, if you wanna buy my book on how I got into nutsack shinin it'll cost ya bastards 25$. It's hardbound and there's a pic of me bendin over in the shower and lookin like a damn doberman pincer. ....kind cute really
Gumby
I sat with the smart kids but I wasn't smart, I'm just good at passing myself off as smart.
No higher education, I pioneered. I've considered going back to school. Maybe in the next few years. Time will tell.....
This has been fun reading all of your stories. We're all winners!!
Gumby I can see why you would be good in track. That's a bummer......
Thanks L Wells. I love history. Are you going to continue to teach the subject?
We all have moved on from those days finding happiness in our lives. It's amazing how the human spirit rises above adversity!
Thanks to all of you for sharing a part of your history!
Love, Juni
Is it too late to reply to this?
If not... I was a nerd. No gal in her right mind would have anything to do with me. (Those few that did - I didn't know what to do - nor did I realize it at the time.)
I was not allowed to socialize at school. The edict from home was to go to school, do the classwork, and git home. No extracurricular activities were allowed.
I was 'nominated' for National Junior Honor Society - declined
I was asked by the H.S. coach if I wanted to play basketball - declined
I knew the school library very well - as I spent my free time there - scouring the books for knowledge.
I was to be given an 'honor' on Senior Honors' night - I was not allowed to attend
I was not allowed to go to graduation - had to get my diploma afterwards (can't show 'honor' to anyone, now - can we?)
I didn't do too bad. I made A's and a few B's. My GPA was pretty high - I don't remember it... I think it was something like 92.926. I didn't make the 'top ten' in my class though... I was like about 12 or 13th in a class of just over 400 seniors.
After I graduated... well... we're talking about pre-1975 - I wasn't really making any long term plans... my mom didn't think I needed college - until a year later. I went for one semester to a junior college, and then she said I didn't need to go anymore (summer semester). Long story that.
I've gone and taken classess off and on over the past years at the junior college... have quite a few credits accumulated - but not enough of the right ones to get any sort of degree. I love college.
I'm pretty much a self-taught nerd.
Regards,
Jim TX
(P.S. Great replies all...)
I am in the midst of applying for post-doctoral fellowships at the moment both here in Europe and in Australia. If i get the australian one it'll be a nice year off- if i get on in Europe at least i'll have a nice 6 months off. Basically it will be more research, publishing papers and speaking at confererences, but also lecturing undergraduate classes up to senior level, a mixed bag really.
It was funny, at our meeting tonight, a sister came up to me to ask about balancing education and the congregation- i got the impression that she was thinking about going herself. She left by saying "i'm glad there is at least some willing to put their neck on the line about it, but still stay in the org" i could only titter and think "if only you knew"