I've missed meetings consistently for about 2 months now. My ex-fiancee just left a energy-filled voicemail. She said..........
"Please come back to the meetings! The friends and I miss you! Just imagine how we would feel if we were at the meeting and the brothers announced to us to not go back to our homes and that the Great Tribulation has begun?! That would really hurt me knowing the state your in if it was to happen now. So please, please, PLEASE think about what i've just said!"
Why not ask me to come back because of love for God? A few others in the congo have expressed their "concern" and used this concept on me. It's all about fear. So it's becoming more and more clearer to me lately that to JWs, excellent meeting attendance will result in salvation. I don't hear Jesus being mentioned anywhere. I know JWs are very sincere about what they believe and they think they know what's best for me, but all of this is only confirming to me the fact that I no longer belong in this organization and their beliefs.
It also confirms to me the fact that is was best for me to end the engagement. Not that doctrinal issues were the only issue with our relationship but I know now that If I would've married her, I would have been miserable. The fact that she's such a company woman is evident of that. When we were together I even used to have to beg her to read the Bible more. She spent almost all of her study sessions just reading the publications from the org. It should've been a no-brainer to me at the time that she'd react negatively about my true expressed feelings to her about the org. As soon as I talked to her about these issues that she viewed me as this spiritually sick person that has been "overreached by Satan" and had "lost Jehovah's spirit". I'm just glad all that happended before it was too late. Things just seemed to fall perfectly in place.
R.F.