I don't feel angry or resentful, do you? (page 2)

icyestrm

The best is to just move on because one can choose to dwell on the past or work at a better, brighter future

I felt great relief being able to leave the BORG, when their theological implants began to fail in a cascading fashion. I was free of the collective and found that anger was unwarranted. I still believe most JWs including the leadership are sincere in their belief system or BS. and as none of them nor me can live up to any fantasy ideal, there is no point in expecting otherwise. Expectation is the key... the closer ones expectations are to experienced reality the fewer reasons one can find for any strong emotion.

reality is perfect until you compare it to something it is not.

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AWAKE&WATCHING

Last stage of grief process is acceptance. I'm there.

However, I am angry about all the ruined lives and always will be.

Blood doctrine - protection of pedophiles - disfellowshipping - Malawi - just to name a few.

ex-nj-jw

I left when I was 18, 24 years ago. I didn't find JWD until this year, and alot of things I never even gave thought to, I found out here. Lot's of "aha" moments and "oh yeah, I do remember that".

I've always "hated" the JW ~~religion~~ cult I knew it was wrong and I didn't hang around to find out what was wrong about it. I still have family in, parents and 2 siblings, the anger I feel is when they still try to push the BS on me, I'm 40+ years old if I didn't want it then, I damn sure don't want it now.

I know this sounds stupid, but I can't stand to hear the JW lingo .

Welcome to JWD, I'm glad you are doing so well and hope you never have a reason to feel the anger that most here do!

nj

NewYork44M

I am going through a divorce as a direct result of the wt.

I want to get on with my life and I want to stop the anger and resentment. However, until I can get over this hump I remain VERY angry and a lot resentful. More anger than resentment.

PEC

Welcome to JWD, Orgull.

we're not angry or bitter. Just hurt and disappointed.

I have used those words before, when I wasn't thinking about how the WTS murdered members of my family, with their blood policy. Today I am angry and bitter, I want those bastards to pay, I want my family out, since that is never going to happen, I will remain angry and bitter. You do what you need to do and I will do what I need to do.

Philip (of the angry and bitter ~~sheep~~ goat class)

OUTLAW

.. Hitting With Bat 2 ..I feel much better now!..LOL!!...OUTLAW

Mum

Glad you're here, Orgull.

Personally, I was a convert in my teens. At the time, being a JW actually improved my lot in life, as I had abusive parents, and being a JW gave me an excuse to be away from them a lot. My dad's boss was a JW, so my acceptance as a JW was a feather in his cap, so to speak.

Only after I married an elder and came closer to the blind true core of the corruption and infighting and downright pettiness that exists in the "inner party" did my doubts begin to surface. I suppressed them as long as I could. After 1975 didn't bring Armageddon, I decided to go back to college. I got sarcasm from the elders and an argument every single day from my elder husband; he became more and more insecure and controlling. I left to save my mental health and to have the basic right to exercise my rights as an adult American to "pursue happiness" in my own way, make my own choices, make my own mistakes, and accept the consequences thereof.

As for bitterness and anger, I have come a long way. My anger nowadays stems from the fact that this organization continues to deceive and ruin lives, refusing to admit their past mistakes and being determined to repeat them to the harm of many good people.

Regards,

SandraC

AK - Jeff

Last stage of grief process is acceptance. I'm there.
However, I am angry about all the ruined lives and always will be.
Blood doctrine - protection of pedophiles - disfellowshipping - Malawi - just to name a few.

Yea - what Awake and Watching said. I used to be bitter - now I am content with being out - but want the madness to end for others too. Jeff

Sunspot

I AM angry. And bitter. And hurt. And disappointed. And until this vicious circle stops, where my face is deliberately ground into the dirt at every opportunity by members of my family....I guess I will remain this way.

Just when I begin to feel a ray of hope or start feeling normal.....someone will do something cruel, hateful and nasty (all because they "love" me) and it wells up all over again.

I resent the WTS for taking full advatage of me for not knowing my bible, and then convincing me that all the thngs that make children's lives and childhoods should be taken away because these things are "displeasing to Jehovah"....

so that they have NO fun birthday outings or parties to remember, no Christmases, Easters, Halloween costumes, Scouts, afterschool clubs and interests to have developed, no Proms or dances and ALL the typical things that kids enjoy and talk about for years. I robbed them of all that.

And now, since I have left....the relatives and my kids that are still trapped in the WTS...will no longer speak to or associate with me as if I was the child of Satan. The kids that WERE JWs and got DFed and *I** stopped associating with THEM when I was still under the Witchtower's spell...

have not had a kind word for me even though I am OUT and have long ago written letters of apology to them for my behavior. It seems I cannot win.

Even members of my family who were not JWs, have little or no use for me as a person BECAUSE of the way I treated my kids when the WTS issued their orders not to associate with ANYONE that has left them.

Both my parents died hating me and have ignored my letters since I was baptized in 1972. They HATED JWs and warned me not to continue my involvement with the WTS. I was cut out of both wills frm that day forward....and all my apologies went unheard.

I realize NOW---that I handled 30 years of my life very badly.....and there are some things I can never make up for. It is too late.

And so it goes.

I struggle with this each and every DAY, it keeps coming back to haunt me, even though I have setted down and tried to carve out a new life for myself. I lost 30 years' worth of the only friends I HAD when I walked away from the WTS.....and being my age and being somewhat disable...it isn't an easy task to "go out and make new friends" as if I was 30!

My newfound FREEDOM is very precious to me, as is my newfound relationship with Jesus. I really feel this is what keeps me going most days.

So maybe some will not be so quick to say "hey--put it behind you" or "just let it go!" when someone is having difficulty exiting from a CULT, as we are.

hugs,

Annie

I don't feel angry or resentful, do you?