Thanks Warlock! I really do appreciate that!
I think one of the most frustrating things about this is that I would LOVE to believe in a God. I tried desperately all while I was a dub and the guilt over not being able to ate me up. A Southern Baptist couple who came to speak at a Comparative Religions class I took and I asked them what they would say to someone who has earnestly and honestly looked for God, for any kind of Higher Being, and was unable to find a connection. Their response was that obviously the person didn't really want to find God because otherwise they would have. Once more, it's the individuals fault, not God who is failing to connect.
I suppose I could be considered an agnostic because quite simply, if that is how God is, ignoring people who are genuine and heartfelt in their desire to find something bigger than themselves, then why would I want to worship him/her/it/them. Conversely in light of the scientific evidence, it makes far more sense to me that there is no God.
brunn (ducking and hiding from the "invite God into your heart" messages)