Rosalee,
Do the brothers know that you frequent an "apostate" web site? I guess the reason you are here is because no one in your cong. likes you and you are in need of socializing. With an attitude like yours, I guess you live alone, huh? What you need is an "apostate' kiss.
As far as my response to the topic of this post, I still stick with what I said.
In my decades as a JW and my years as an elder, I saw first hand that one of the largest problems in the org. is the overindulgence of alchohol. Reason being that as a JW you are not allowed to have any meaningful friendships with anyone not a JW and I never saw a truely close friendship in the congregations either. Drinking is a great way to alleviate boredom, isn't it Rose?
If you still want to stick around the "forbidden" zone, then feel free to stay. Eventually your eyes might be opened and you will lose the apologetic attitude.
While you're at the meeting tomorrow, don't forget to pray to the FDS for forgiveness for venturing into a forbidden place.
HappyDad