333, I know you're reading this. I read every response to my first angry post to the old H2o forum way back in '97 or '98. The very fact that you got as far as even posting is very telling of your inner conflict, as it was with me.
I think it is also very interesting that you are here after the latest counsel from the Organization in the form of the Questions from Readers in the Sept. "Our Kingdom Ministry". If you really are a loyal and devoted JW then you have read that and been at the Service meeting this week when it was discussed.
So, why are you really here? Surely it's not just to yell at us and tell us how awful we are?
I am not full of hatred. I am angry at times when I see how my aging parents are in their late '70s, in ill health, in debt to their ears, with ZERO retirement income with the exception of a small SS check each month (small because of small donations into it) and my Dad has to work as a greeter at the local WalMart just to pay for the medicine that keeps my wonderful mother alive. They gave their lives to the Organization, (my father was PO, Elder, RBC, HLC, Spec Pioneer, Reg Pioneer) convinced that they would never grow old and die. Armageddon was coming *soon* so there was no need to plan for the future, was there? Yet I do not see the Organization supporting them or helping them in their late autumn years.
I am angry at times also when I see my fleshly brothers that are JWs following the same path to old age with no education, no retirement and no resources. We had a wonderful family reunion last month in New Hampshire. The only ones that didn't show? . . . my brothers who are JWs, (who both lived within an hours travel of the reunion).This was avery poor witness to the rest of the family and there was not little spoken about, esp when many of us traveled much longer distances, some from Florida and Canada.
My parents were there only because my mother insisted to my father that they be there. Why? Because I feel in my heart that she feels this is the last time she will see all her brothers and sisters and relatives before she passes through the veil. My mom has told me many times that she wished she could go back and do things differently, the biggest being making sure her four boys (I am the oldest) got a college education and planned for retirement so that they would not have the hardships that she and Dad have.
I am angry at times because I missed many years of any relationship with my relatives who were not in the Org. They have been more supportive and loving to me in times of hardship many times over than anyone in the *True Religion* ever was. When I was a stranger, they took me in, bandaged my wounds, fed me, and gave me money and a place to live until I could get it together. If it weren't for my *worldly* relatives and friends, I would not be alive to write thes things to you.
I have no hatred, only some anger and much sorrow. I am happy to be alive and live each day to it's fullest.
I hope you stick around to see that we are not a bad bunch!
Peace Out \/