bienvenida. Go easy on yourself. It takes time. Find something that empowers you.
I served at Bethel for almost 10 years. I and my fam. are out. I advise you to look up Steve Hassan's books on cults. These can help you on your way to recovery. Also, the book, "the power of now" may benefit you.
LONG LIVE THE INTERNET!
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