Hello Everyone,
First of all I would like to think everyone for the support I recieved yesterday. I would also like to shed some light on my past, hopefully this does not give it away as to who I might be. My wife and I were both raised as JW, we were both baptized when were fifteen years old. Both of our dads were Elders, the families were always together and considering there was a lack of other kids our age at the KH we naturally gravitated towards each other. By the time we were seventeen our our teenage hormones were at an alltime high and we all know about the pressure of not having sex until you are married. So we rushed into marriage at eighteen and within two months of being married she was pregnant. We had a beutiful set of twins that I would not trade for anything in the world. I have no regrets, but I have counseled many young kids since then to not rush into marriage, because the first few years were extermely difficult on us and our marriage. The interesting thing is because our age difference is not that much between my sons and I, our relationship is as much a best friend/dad type of situation. My wife and I had a great relationship until my sons were dfd, she agreed on the way the Elders handled the situation I did not. My wife is the kinda of person that has the type of blind faith in the organaztion that to me borders on mental illness.
Before I begin about last nights JC meeting I would like to personally let everyone know that has ever been in one, I am sorry. Typically in life I never look back with any regrets, but I believe it is borderline criminal what I put many people through. I always believed I was doing Jehovahs will and protecting the flock.
My meeting last night to this point in my life was one of the most difficult situations I have ever been in. First of all two of my best freinds in the KH were on the comittee, our families have shared many dinners, vacations and other social functions together. As in any JC meeting involving possible apostasy the first thing they wanted to know was if I was sharing any of my doubts with any other JW's, I said absoutltely not. They questioned the fact about my copy of C of C and if I will continue to read it. I said yes, I have no plans of putting it down until I am done with it. We discussed the doubts that I had, the one we spent the most time on was about the generation and how the light continues to change on this subject. I told them my grandparents, my parents and now I have spent our entire lives on putting our trust in what I believe the foundation of the JW's. At that moment I made a concience decision in my sons life and my life to have a new beginning. I told them with no regret that I no longer wanted to be recognized as one of Jehovah's Witness and walked out. After I got back to the house I informed my wife of my decision, she broke down I tried to reason with her. She went upstairs, packed a bag and left to her parents house, I have not talked to her since. As far as my sons go, after a talk with them I told them no matter what happens I will be there for them, and for the time please give thier mother some space and time. I will do everything in my power to save my family short of returning to KH.
P.S. Once again I appreciate everyones support through these difficult times. I do not know how it will all turn out but at least I have this support group and time to get through it.