NVR- Sad situation and commentary on the pressure the witnesses have put on them to constantly perform and appease the powers that be in their beliefs . When people are constantly made to feel that they can never do enough or live up to certain unrealistic ideals , it puts an incredible sense of unnecessary guilt on them thus causing fatalistic thinking in them they'll never be good enough to be accepted. The amazing thing to me is that more Jehovah's Witnesses don't commit suicide ! I'm truly sorry to hear that happened my friend ! Peace to you, and may we all treasure our fellow JWDers and show true compassion and love for others daily