okkkkkkkkkk, i got a million of them
big d
Whatever You Do It's Never Enough!
by new boy 27 Replies latest jw friends
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momzcrazy
Only two at a time.
momz
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purplesofa
Your self-esteem can only take so much bashing.......You will either finally leave or become a mindless robot which is what we see in so many of the ones that have been in for a long time.
purps
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XOCO
its been a while since i've posted but today when i was out in service, (Yes i'm still a JW i won't bash anyone here) but a sister had brought up the question why i haven't decided to get baptise yet? because every time she asks she sends me on a guilt trip and i always, always hated that. in XOCO's mind i'm saying i go to all the meetings i make comments and i go out in field service therefore i'm doing everything a jw is supposed to do. the problem is if i get dunked then i would have to be a pioneer and people would send me on a guilt trip to be a pioneer just so they can boost up their statistics. well then i'm rejecting the null hypothesis (learned that from statistics) also one day the CO gave a talk about people who were not baptise saying that we were "blood-guilty" same thing 4 not attending meeting and FS. thats when i realize that it was a trap
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BIG D
xoco.........
you are learning, there are many honesthearted people in the hall, but there are many everywhere else too, you will never be able to do enough, the only time any witness ever felt truly good was right after service, and thats it, and when thats over, you are guilty conscience is telling you to do more, pioneer, elder, co, bethel, that is what your taught daily, better you find out now than after 35 years, and lost family and kids.
you are young i assume, give it much thought, and im sure you will be fine,
big d
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XOCO
i hope so big d, i've been playin this senerio in my head of what i am going to loose and its hard 4 me to see where i would be w/o jehovah org b/c i don't know anything else i'm like this hermit thats always stuck in her shell, and the people that i've hurt like my mom i know she would be so heart broken. XOCO
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BIG D
xoco...
i am sorry you are put in such a situation, at a very young age, i have a son your age, and i raised him in the borg, and i have taken him out, my twins, dont know anything, i am a father, and my advise to you is be thankful you found out now, and do a little research, dont depend on what anybody says, we are told to ask householders to examine their faith, but we are told to not search out ours, does that not seem odd to you?
yes there is love in many friends in the borg, there is love everywhere, being young is hard, you want to please everyone, but you must grow up and take responsibilty for yourself, many times the right decisions are a little scary, when you are goin against all you have known, it was that way for all here, we are here for you. agape
big d
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new boy
Big D.....
Big...D
Big ...D
If I can help just one person.....not have to live the same life I had after 50 years a watch tower slave...
Bless you my friend.
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Warlock
new boy,
I asked you where you had been, and to stick around.
This thread is the reason why.
You hit on THEE MAIN emotion used on the R & F.
GUILT, GUILT AND MORE GUILT.
LET'S ALL JUST DO SO MUCH, WE FUCKING DROP DEAD!
Warlock
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katiekitten
(((((((XOCO))))))
I always hated that feeling of not having done enough even when I was pioneering. We always had this thing about saying "when armageddon comes will you be able to stand before Jehovah and honestly say you did all you could?"
Well, I used to think if I was literally stood before Jehovah I doubt if I would feel as if preaching night and day would be enough.
Its a terrible way to grind people down. It was such a relief when I finally left, and comitted my first biggie sin and thought 'well thats it Hes going to destroy me at armageddon now'. Then I thought, HEY he can only kill me once! I felt totally liberated!