I remember, now, all the younger bros who were making thier way to ministerial servants, and here I was, a new recruit who was just watching Jehovah's Organisation get away from me. I would often feel slightly less than panty waste while I cringed as a young buck, half my age was up giving the opening credits for the service meeting. I would often think to myself, "That's where you're supposed to be, now. Why are you just floundering around in God's Organisation?" Though I was in the Hall for only a season, I was always obsessed with the do more and you'll feel better, syndrome. Funny, shades of that defect in character still follows me thru-out my life outside of the Hall now.
Whatever You Do It's Never Enough!
by new boy 27 Replies latest jw friends
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R.Crusoe
Mmmm! I was brought up outside JWs by a mother for whom my best was never enough -and I blamed myself for all the failings of trying to help 3 younger sisters and a brother when things went wrong. I was burnt out so many times that I ended in a dead psychological space that I thought was depression - which is a useful term for many - to give you a name which puts all the onus back on the person who must get over it. What it really is in my view amounts to repeated expectation coupled with limited appreciation followed by a weakening that results in utter rejection! Some of it must have been my own fault, just on the basis of chance and likelihood! And so I alone, from the family I got turfed out of, then married as a teenager and then joined the JWs! Please do not laugh too much!
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WTWizard
I have noticed that trend in the talks. If you are a student, you are expected to make one meeting, and then all three (here I define one meeting as one trip). Then you have to join the Theocraptic Misery "School(??)" and give talks. All the while, you are supposed to be throwing away any artifacts of your life. Then they expect you out in field circus. From there, you have to get baptized. Then it's pioneering. Even the pioneers are supposed to be increasing to higher levels. The highest I have heard them goad a person up to like this is something like 230 hours of field circus every month.
And don't expect a break if you get sick. People are supposed to go out in field circus if they have a cold, no matter how bad it is (never mind that the cold, along with the pxxx poor diet of the pioneers and the extra stress, makes one extremely tired). They will bring up the pioneer that was in an iron lung or paid $600 per meeting to rent a helicoptor and still made it. So, with your severe cold, you really have no reason not to go out in field circus.
Nor are other circumstances acceptable, either. Aside paying $600 a meeting, I have heard of people walking 20 miles each way in stifling heat, crossing water that had crocodiles or pirrhana, and then getting a beating upon getting home and still made it to every wastefest. And there are those who have to walk through dense jungle with crocodiles, poisonous snakes and spiders, and disease carrying insects to go out in field circus, so what is your problem if you can't even do it with crime, dogs, and dangerous sidewalks (yes, they got in pioneer hours, often in excess of 200 a month).
At least on this forum, I can post here with (or without) a cold. There is no chance of spreading it, nor do I have to keep going to exhaustion if I think I am getting sick. And I don't have to risk picking up a cold or the flu at the door or spreading it (or catching it) in the car group this way.
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justhuman
it depends what I do
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golf2
Yeah, that's my mom !!!!! I'm referring to my daily activites, this applied to ALL members of the family. My family were not all JW's.
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oompa
Locally only one time was I ever made to feel this way, but always hated how guilt driven the literature tried to make you feel. As long as my monthly check came in, and I mowed and cleaned a terlit once in awhile....I was still goin to heaven or wherever...oompa
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prophecor
........and cleaned a terlit once in awhile....
Ohhhhh Archie
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Dorktacular
I know I did enough. I gave them my entire childhood and most of my youth. If that ain't good enough @#$%%^ them up their stupid @#$%#s.