Absolutely, when I first left and was DF'd for the first two years, I was so angry and disillusioned I could not even pray or read, then it hit me.
Why am I taking out on God and Christ what men did to me. I volunteered to join this man made religion, opted to stay in it for as long as I did. I realized then, it didnt matter what religion or what influence it took, just as long as I didnt search out the True God myself.
Then, is when I started my own personal Bible reading with a Prayful attitude and appreciated, that the God of the Bible who got in contact with the mind of the writers was also able to get in contact with my mind.
Do I understand everything, obviously NO, but I have come to appreciate my Creator and God and His Son in ways that 22 years as a witness never could or did.
Yes I believe in God more and more, my head is now right and I came to appreciate, I never did serve God but rather men, my faith was not in God but rather men, my strenght was never in God but men.
Men disappointed me, God hasn't but rather brought me through my trials and help me to see my major flaws with regard to my faith.
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