1. What was it like when you "awakend?" 2. How did you know, and...... (page 2)

Satanus

1. Shocked, then liberated.

2. I saw that the gb was not directed by god.

2.5. See 1..

3. Not long, maybe a month, or so.

4. It was sudden.

5. Reading ray franz' book.

6. I got dffed about a yr later.

S

blueviceroy

Relief

Fear

Love

Fullfillment

Thats my experience of awakening to my true nature and being free of the conditioned existence imposed on us by the world. Religion is just one manifestation of the greater cult that is society.

Breaking free of the "education " of the world and experiencing it free of conditioned thought is a reward that is priceless and elusive.

Being free to accept life as it is and just be alive and part of it fully is a gift you give to yourself . it's ok to be what and who you really are you don't need a group of others to teach you that love is ok.

After all we all just want love anyway , thats why we do the things we do , so what is better than finding that love within us rather than seeking elswhere , you can't give what you don't have.

Undecided

I just got feed up with all the task I had as PO, and several other positions in the congregation. My JW wife divorced me without any explaination, so I just faded out and remarried a worldly woman with two kids that I had known for several years. Her husband died a couple of years before we got married. I didn't care if it was the truth, I wanted to enjoy my current life and I have done that since. SInce comming on this JWD discussion board and reading C of C I have seen the true light that kept getting brighter and dimmer as time goes on. I am now looking out in the sky to see if anything is out there we can talk to, so far no answer has come back.

Ken P.

oompa

WOW guys! What an array of feelings this stuff has brought in us, and it's nice to know we have shared a very similar experience, no matter what triggered it. I do find it odd that to this day I have NEVER heard anything about the UN scandal but here??? Did anybody find out through regular old JW pipeline???............thanks all.....hope more post.........oompa

IsaacJS2

1. What was it like when you "awakened?"

Mostly, I was relieved. I simply made up my mind that I was done. At least for a while. I didn't let go completely for several more years.

2. How did you know and how did you react at that time?

The Society was pure poison for me. I finally realized that all this misery and feelings of despair were coming from my supposed fountain of hope. Well, how do ya like that... I still believed in God at the time, and felt that this wasn't the organization God wanted it to be. If it was His organization, then God wasn't so great after all. So I knew I needed to step back and start over. The big thing was that all the attitudes and hubris I had once pinned on my local Elders started coming through the magazines themselves! That was the beginning of the end.

3. How long was it before you took action on this event?

A year or two. I remember when I first started to sense that something was missing. It just didn't feel "true" or satisfying any more, but I kept on chugging in the face of the shame. Looking back, I think I couldn't accept it until after I was married because I couldn't get married if I didn't believe. But I was just barely doing what I had to by the time we did. A year or so later, I finally accepted the fact that I absolutely hated the meetings and couldn't stand most of the people there. The Elders were the absolute worst.

4. Was there a particular thing that all of a sudden caused you to wake up, or did doubts build over the years?

It came in stages. First, I realized the local Elders were screwed up really, truly badly. But I thought the Society was still the real deal. Only they never did anything to straighten the congregation out despite the cries for help. Then the magazines started saying many of the same things the Elders were in their talks. It wasn't until after I was married that I fully accepted the source of my pain was the Society.

5.What finally did it for you?

I covered that one.

6. How long before you in some way were no more part of your congregation?

Happened all at once. I finally realized that I couldn't take it any more. I was going to do something harmful to myself just to keep going. No, I thought. This is sick. I never went to another meeting. 2 weeks later and the harassment began, but I stuck to my guns. And I do take it rather personal when they try to proselytize me even now. (I wrote about it on my web site) Otherwise, they can do whatever they like. I didn't realize that I was an atheist until a decade after I'd left. But that's another story.

IsaacJ

momzcrazy

I felt peace. And happiness. As I have said before, my hubby thought I was self medicating because of the unusual happiness. I feel very emotional because my family is free.

Some things that did it for me: The UN ties. The stupidity of the blood issue. The cruelty of disfellowshipping. The Govening Body ruling millions of lives, they remind me of the Pharisees of the Bible. The pushing of WT literature instead of the Bible. And the fact that I was told I couldn't have a tubal ligation if I wanted. Excuse me?!

Seeing the news last week devastated me and my sister. We are both going to DA ourselves.

I am also thankful I got my kids out, even if it took me 8 yrs!

momz

jaguarbass

The Wactower was against education my whole life.

The Wactower preached the end of the world in 75.

When 75 came and went, I started thinking something wasnt right. How could they be Gods organization and prophecy falsely. And what about all of the young people like myself who didnt get an education and we had to find a way to survive in this world.

By 83, I acted on my vibe and said enough is enough. Between 75 and 83, I must have been doing the fade. There was no internet so I didnt know what I was doing or what it was called. But I missed as many meetings as I could. I had a wife in the tower and her family. They were my pressure to be a witnoid.

A particlar instance was 83. Then I still had one foot or toe in the kingdumb hall to hedge my bets.

I got a job as a deputy Sheriff, It was the best I could do without college. And the Witnoids bombarded me non stop until I quit the Sheriffs Department. The light had just flickered from it was ok to carry a gun to it was not ok. I think the month I got hired the light flickered. After I quit and had time to think, I never went back to the hall again. I was working 2 jobs and working nights with the sheriff and not getting any sleep and then the witnesses would bug me every chance they could to quit.

Then after I quit, none of them came around with a good paying job with benefits and a retirement for me. That really pissed me off.

It was December of 83 they pressured me to quit. And I have never been back to a meeting since December of 83.

What really pisses me off is if I would have stayed with the Sheriff I would be retired this year making more money retired than I do working, more than most people make working in the state of Florida. I would be retired with time and money to enjoy my life. They sucked it right out of me.

I guess its all my fault. When 75 came and went. I should have stopped associating January 1 76. But it was a cult. I think I did good to get out in 83 and not have killed anyone or been killed. KIlled by denying medical care.

dogisgod

Jaguarbass, First of all I know exactly where you are coming from, Secondly, You TOTALLY crack me up on the jw jargon. LOL

mamochan13

1. What was it like when you "awakend?" My awakening was rather gradual. I had left the religion for quite a while before I actually started to realize it was a cult.

2. How did you know, and......2.5 how did you react at that time? Again, it was gradual, but the light grew brighter when I started reading Randy Watters' site, and then became a beacon when I found this forum.

3.how long was it before you somehow took action on this event? My real awakening was closely link to my decision to start university full time. As I was immersed in my studies I started to learn things that really piqued my interest and got me thinking. I don't recall when it happened, but one day about 7 or 8 years ago I decided to start researching JWs on the net.

4. Was there a particular thing that all of a sudden caused you to wake up, or did doubts build over the years? My DF'ing was the first big wake up call. Now looking back I see I had many doubts over the years, but I wasn't willing to rock the boat and lose everything. Once I had lost everything (family, friends, etc.), it became much easier to let the doubts surface.

5.What finally did it for you? Being reinstated. As they were all welcoming back with open arms, I realized that I was still the same person they had kicked out as being untouchable and unworthy of association and how ridiculous it was that they had been able to put me through sheer hell for a year and a half. I realized I did not deserve what they had done and that was the beginning of "the end".

6. How long before you in some way were no more part of your congregation? Another turning point for me was when I missed my first memorial, back in 1998. The consequences of that were pretty awful, as my family embarked on a campaign to try and force my daughters to remain in the religion. In the push to save my family I made my final break.

oompa

there should be a whole lot more posts on this.....and if there are not.....I will not answer my on post........oompa

and I know you horny ladies are so gonna wanna hear the real deal

1. What was it like when you "awakend?" 2. How did you know, and......

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