What was the 1st thing you did that wasn't allowed after leaving the JW's? (page 5)

lv4fer

I went to a local Episcopal church(I was raised Episcopal) and took Holy Communion. I also voted in the next election.

Gringa

I hate to tell my story, but this thread got me thinking.

Raised 3rd generation with a fanatical, abusive mother. I was such a good little girl. But, that didn't spare me the rod. Afterall, spare the rod, spoil the child. I was to graduate high school in 1975 and mom wanted me to drop out at 16 and pioneer full time. I didn't. It made her very mad at me and I was harped on daily about attending school. But, school was my escape.

At 16, I also started having unclean thoughts about boys and sex. I knew I was going to die in Armageddon in 2 short years because I was so evil. I remember waking up one day and realising that if I was going to die soon, I might as well have some fun in my short remaining life. So, I did. I tried cigarettes, still smoking to this day. I got beaten to an inch of my life when my mom found cigarettes in my purse. So, I said fuck it and I tried pot, uppers, downers, LSD, mushrooms, sex, cocaine.... I went wild. I got a job and my mom freeked out but I did it anyway. I asked if I could work Sundays so I didn't have to go to the KH. It was a part-time job and I got to pick my days - Tuesday nights, Thursday nights and Sundays. All meeting times.I also starting taking extra classes in school so I could graduate a semister early, a month before my 18th birthday and have more time for my fun. The day I turned 18 I moved out of my mom's house and never looked back.

Needless to say, 1975 came and went and I didn't die. I was prepared and willing to die. I make a consious decision to die at the hand of Jehovah.

Thankfully, my craziness just latest about 5 years. I have since got my act together and raised 4 beautiful children and will be a grandma for the first time in less than a month. I have lots of issues that relate to my childhood, but I do the best I can, I have lots of friends, close worldly friends for years that have all seen me through good and bad times. Thankfully, they have been there for my while my Witness family has not.

I had 4 brothers and I haven't even touched on the things they did. I only have 2 still alive. I promise to love them and always be their for them, one I can't find, he is an alcoholic that has disappeared to the streets in another state, I think. One who is dead, was screwed up due to sexual abuse by an witness when he was a child and led a hard wild life and was murdered just this past April.

I really urge all those that are still in to seriously look at the harm you are doing to your children.

sooner7nc

Besides the usual (stop going to meetings, CofC, etc.) I've grown chin whiskers. I wanna look like Tank Abbott when I grow up.

sooner7nc

Younglove1999

I had sex with my husband-

We both made the decision and even though we always had a great marraige, there was something so amazing about being truly open and honest with each other about EVERYTHING and holding nothing back. Quite the aphrodisiac!

We have the most amazing conversations now about anything and everything- politics, money, religion, sex, art, entertainment, books,-

ETA: I just realized I answered the question wrong-

Sorry!

Nosferatu

I did most of the bad stuff while I was still in. I did it in this order:

- Listen to Rap music (with bad language)
- Watched porn (that's where I got educated about sex, NOT from the YY book)
- Stayed in class and stood for the national anthem
- Recieved oral sex from my worldly gf
- Started smoking
- Quit attending meetings

GoddessRachel

Gringa, thank you for sharing your story. It is incredible. I am very proud of you for being so strong. I am very sorry for all that has hurt you and your siblings. ((((Gringa)))))

Gringa

Thanks for the hug Rache!l I am also sorry for all my fellow brothers and sisters that were raised as I was. I am not alone, there are a heck of a lot of us that sustained abuse. I know we are survivors. We all have a lot to be proud of. Anyone who has walked away from the cult needs to be proud, whether born in or not! It is not an easy road to walk, but my, it is worth it!

My proudest accomplishment since leaving is raising 4 kids to be happy, healthy adults without ever hitting them, without guilt and without stepping foot into a KH! Hell, I never took them to a church or read them one bible story and funny, somehow they grew up with a sense of right and wrong and they have ZERO fear of God. They don't even think about whether there is a God or not. Funny, when it is not spoken of, it doesn't cross their minds.

MsMcDucket

Stopped trying to feel guilty about every damn thing! Started to try to relax and take each day as it came. Stopped worrying about Jehovah killing me!

B_Deserter

Besides being on here?

I'd say it'd have to be buying and reading "The God Delusion" by Richard Dawkins. I do know of one witness on the internet however that told someone he would leave that book on the coffee table in front of an elder and not have to worry (lie!). But, just in case he wasn't lying (he was!), It'd have to be the first time I said "Happy Thanksgiving" this year, not just someone saying it to me and me saying "you too."

I also posted on the Casual Encounters section of Craiglist but only got answers from gay guys (even though I was posting on m4w) and webcam spam bots.

I have looked at internet porn while my brother was having his bible study in the other room.

Low-Key Lysmith

Sweet, sweet fornication.............ahhhhhhhhh.

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