At this point, the best thing you can do is continue researching the organization. Yes, it will pxxx you off even more. But, you will be exposed to the additional lies that have been committed in the name of God. At that, by a religion that prides itself in bashing the other religions that seem to do the same.
You are going to face some major problems trying to get out, either way. You can (1) stay in, hoping to avoid the hounding and appear righteous, but you will have to play by their rules in the process and will likely be looked at suspiciously for every little thing you do "wrong". Or (2) fade out. You will have to appear to be struggling, and attend fewer meetings with time. Of course, they will hound you, and if that "local(??)" needs part was really organization wide, missing even one meeting will bring the hounders down on you. Both of these courses will still allow you to continue contact with family, unless they "mark" you because they want ever more out of you.
Or, (3) you could bite the bullet and disassociate yourself. Doing this is a major step, and will cut off the hounding. The price you pay is that you lose any family and "friends" that are in, and they create lots of friction in marriages where one is in and the other is out. You might even wait a while before playing that card. Beware that walking out on a meeting could easily lead to houndings that could get you disfellowshipped (and that's worse if they feel they can hold family hostage).
Each course has its benefits and drawbacks. Staying in will subdue the houndings, but you will have to follow the rules and spend time in field circus each month (and you will still be counted as one of them). And you will have to pretend to believe everything they say, even to your family members (who are programmed to rat you out if you confess to not believe everything). Plus, the longer you wait, the harder it is going to be to fade later or when you do decide to disassociate.
Fading may be best, at least for now. Immediately stop accepting new "privileges", and start cutting back on meetings and field circus. As long as you are going out, you will still be counted as one of them. Once you become totally inactive (and they do not put in fake time slips in your behalf to appease the hounder-hounder), you will no longer count as a publisher. You will, however, be counted as a member, albeit inactive, and probably a target for a hounding call years down the road. For now, this might be the best course to take while you continue doing other research. When the time is right, and if you can get most of your family our, you might find it worthwhile to disassociate.
