by 4mylove 39 Replies latest jw experiences
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i truely can sign every single statement you posted. e-v-e-r-y single line. even this one "I'm scared everyday that I'll never have a family of my own because of this stupid cult. I won't bring innocent lives into this shit." :-(
just switch "he" with "she"...
much love to you, i feel for you :-/
Hi 4mylove,
Forgive me from posting from the Bible (not the NWT!) but I trust you gain comfort from these words.
1 Peter 5:7 (New International Version)
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
Philippians 4:6-8 (New International Version)
6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
1 John 4:18 (New International Version)
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment.
The JW cult is so ugly and so unbiblical. I pray you and your family find freedom from it very soon.
All the best,
Stephen
Maddie, Chalam, Freeme
Thank you all so much. Chalam those were very kind and helpful scriptures.
Maddie, that is an awesome saying!
Freeme, thanks for the , I needed it.
I love this board! It's what helps me get through my days...
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Let your fear motivate you to knowlege. It's "them" that should be afraid. Damn.
I'm scared everyday of them.
Use that, learn, help those you care about. One day, the fear will be determination.
One day, they will be even more afraid of the thing they claim to represent, the truth.
WLG
I don't have any advice, but I hear you and I'm so sorry you have to carry that fear around - I hope your husband loves you more than the WTBTS and/or his family.
That is horrible to have to go through every day in fear....
Babygirl said it perfectly - one day at a time. Cross the bridge when you come to it, don't pre-empt it - it may be all for naught.
I could have written that a few years ago myself. Then I got angry, anger is not always a negative. It can spur you into action. You can find tangible ways to 'fight' the wt when you cannot reach your jw or soon to be jw. I lost my husband to the cult in some ways, mind, body, and soul. At times the old him resurfaces and I know he is in there somewhere. I can either wallow in the depression I had when all this first started or I can do something to keep others out. I can obsess about the wt (which I have done and at times still do) or I can decide to have a life with or without him, he is welcome to come along for the ride. I can no longer wait for him in the sidelines as he is busy literally every other day with jw business. Me & the kids life are just to valuable to waste any more time waiting for him, life must go on. As strange as it has become since he became a jw. It is what it is, and until truth matters more to him than being in his version of 'truth' , I can only change things for myself and my kids. May sound harsh but the reality isn't. He has no clue and I think most jw's with ub-families would not even notice either. We no longer attempt to plan around when dad will be home to do something or wait until a meeting is over, we go. He makes the choice to be away from his family.
A hint for you, find a few good friends an laugh about the asinine things in jw's. May sound mean but it really helps to keep some perspective. Besides when a few girlfriends get together and the giggling starts and off color remarks begin, they hold you over when all you really want to do is crawl into the despair. That's a bad place to be, fear & despair, been there and I ain't going back! Sure, we have had the serious discussions about jw's but it so much more fun to laugh about it if you can find a bit of humor.
Hang in there it can get ok and even good at times. Sometimes we have to intellectualize the problem instead of internalizing it, almost as if you are looking at it from a socialogical perspective rather than the man you know and love. Or somedays I just think of it as a mental illness of sorts. Why? what is my other choice? to realize he chose this cult over me and his children? that is too hard to live with on a daily basis so little psychological tricks get you through the day.
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I'm scared everyday that I'll never have a family of my own because of this stupid cult. I won't bring innocent lives into this shit.
you have no idea how much I can appreciate this comment. NO IDEA...
My wife asks me weekly when are we having a baby..... she wants one soooo bad. She is practically begging me, but I just can't bring myself to tell her why.
Of all the love in the world I have for her, and her for me, it is this reason, exactly as you stated it, that I fear I can never make my wife truly happy.
This is the deepest secret I keep from my wife, the one thing I cant bring myself to tell her. This will be what brings true feelings about "the truth" to light.
I truly feel for you and understand your dilemma. I only wish I had an answer for you, if I knew it I would gladly give it.
Thanks for sharing....
Carla wrote: I can no longer wait for him in the sidelines as he is busy literally every other day with jw business. Me & the kids life are just to valuable to waste any more time waiting for him, life must go on. As strange as it has become since he became a jw. It is what it is, and until truth matters more to him than being in his version of 'truth' , I can only change things for myself and my kids. May sound harsh but the reality isn't.
Thank you. I'm not married. And really don't have any active jw's in my day-to-day life. But this comment was important for me to read.
Thank you.
-Denise.
