I recently read a riveting, but heartrending story in this forum by "TJ". Although the story at many points tears at your heart, TJ's post is an exceptionally well-written story of his life growing up as a Witness. If you have not read it yet, I would encourage you to do so. The post is titled, "Pop Goes the Circuit Breaker".
One of the things that has caught me since joining this forum is how many times religious abuse repulses people from God. It very difficult to read about people's journeys into atheism after having experience such deep perversion of religion (I am not referring here to TJ's persuasions, as I am not clear as to where he is - I am simply making a general observation about the journey from belief to atheism that often follows on the heels of religious abuse.). Reading TJ's post (and the comments that follow) has reminded me of several major themes that seem to show up as one cotemplates embracing or rejecting atheism:
1. How, in an atheistic worldview does a person who persists in abuse (particularly religious abuse), mind-control, evil, etc... get repaid for the evil that they have sown? One of the odd features of this life (if indeed our three-score-and-ten is all that there is), is that we as people have the frightening capacity to sow more evil than our physical bodies can possibly pay for. There was a man just a short distance from where I live who raped and beheaded a teenage girl . When I think of the evil that he has done to this girl, her family and his culture, my mind scrambles trying to discover a fitting physical punishment that would be appropriate to met out to this guy. Old Sparky would be far too kind. (BTW, I get tired of hearing about how these guys get 20-years)
It seems as though "tijkmo" (in an excellent comment / post on TJ's story) was wrestling with this question as well. After recalling on a difficult time in which tijkmo was seriously wronged / betrayed, tijkmo wrote, "...the damage they did turned me against not just them but god himself. i still believe in god but mainly cos someday I think he will demand an explanation from them."
If you have journeyed towards atheism as a result of religious abuse, do you sense that atheism satisfies an innate cry for the satisfaction of justice in the face of the evil you or others have experienced?
I am not raising this question because I want to gaggle at someone who is hurting (like the disciples who asked, "Which one sinned, this man or his parents that he was born blind?...). I raised this question because TJ's story, tijkmo's post, and so many other conversations here have touched on this theme - a theme that is well worth exploring...
...AFTER you have read, Pop Goes the Circuit Breaker!
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