When I first read CoC and CF, my thoughts were these:
"If what I'm reading is true, then alot of things I have believed for 30yrs are wrong; and the Organisation I believe to be God's Channel cannot be what it claims. However, if the things in these books are NOT true, then the books are worthless and possibly evil and vindictive."
I then went on 6mths of research to CHECK whether they were true or not. They were accurate. So I left to continue serving God without the WT.