When I stepped into the Kingdom Hall, I was what they wanted me to be. When I got home, I was myself again. Simple.
How long did it take...
by Honesty 23 Replies latest jw friends
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Mickey mouse
How do you get back to normal when you were raised a witness?
This is the question for me too. All the same, I recognise that I have the dual personality referred to by Steve Hassan in Combatting Cult Mind Control and so do all of my siblings, raised in.
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Mickey mouse
Forgot to say that I spoke to an ex JW recently who told me "you will never know who you truly are until you are out".
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Quirky1
Not long....maybe a week or so, if that.
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White Dove
Same as Wha happened. The struggle in being a conservative, self-denying X-ian just took it's toll. I couldn't keep doing it. It would surface many times from kidhood through adulthood. Just couldn't be that good and conforming all the time. Now, I can't bear a second of conforming to anyone else's mould.
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Tired of the Hypocrisy
As hard as I tried to shed my old personality and put on the armor of the cult, I never really succeeded in getting that done. I have always been trying to do better with my foul mouth, my inability to shut up when I see wrongs being committed, and my porn addiction. I would avoid praying as best I could at the hall and for gatherings, and turned down a few posts. Mainly because I felt like doing so would make me the horror of horrors....a hypocrite.
It has taken no time at all for me to return to my same old self! LOL
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Hope4Others
The New Personality hmmm,
Personally I feel my personality is better now than it ever could of been for the past 25 years,
I feel alive, real, and I really do care for people and for how and what they feel.
Cheers
hope4others
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CandleLight
I never really received my new personality until I was leaving.
I think I know how you mean it, and really that arrogant, fake, condensending 'new personality' I had been conditioned to have, fell away rather quickly considering the exposure to it my whole life.
I am now a real person, with real love to express, and real concern.
Praise God for freedom
CL
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garybuss
I never had a "normal", I was raised as a Witness. All I knew was the Witness culture, it was my core beliefs. All I've been able to do is get an education and try not to make the same mistakes again. I'm a work in progress.
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Casper
Coming out of the world to become a witness, I tried really had to put on that "New Personality", never quite fit tho.
When I finally realized I was out and NEVER going back, it took about 15 min. of intense personal thought about the situation, and then I was "FREE"... I was elated... to say the least.
Cas