Does Fear Rule Your Life ? (page 3)

jaguarbass

In response to your question, Does fear rule my life?

I think the answer is yes. I'm not really aware of the fear today.

I do know I am usually agitated and axious.

In the past I have taken paxil and that slowed the agitation and anxiety down. I have been off of it for a couple of years and my wife says I am much more difficult.

I spent 7 years going to AA. The last 5, I didnt have a drink for, and those 5 years were peaceful serene euphoric, like nirvana or Utopia.

I remember from all those AA meetings when I got to the gist of my problem, the bottom. It was fear.

I was lead to believe from AA that Fear, is everyones problem.

They call fear, False evidence appearing real.

The cure is faith.

Faith in the God of your understanding.

Also they taught KISS, keep it simple stupid.

If you intellectualize and kill the God of your understanding then they said "Suffer you bastard"

I have done that by believing in evolution and atheism.

If I want peace and serrenity, I cant entertain atheism and evolution.

Because for me thats not simple, Thats killing the God of my understanding.

I met a lot of people who had Rocks for Gods. They said they didnt drink. I dont know how happy they were.

AA is based on the bible, And for 5 of 7 years back in the 80's to 90's it worked and I controlled the fear that I didnt know I had.

I remember back in the 80's when I escaped the tower and went to AA, I learned to enjoy my life back then.

I bought a Harley Davidson and rode it a lot.

I bought a boat and water skiied several times a week.

I went snow skiing in Colorado and British Columbia.

I remember when I was a witness, I was a border line hypochondriac, I suspect from the negativity and guilt.

I went through a period of self hypnotizing myself with possitive affirmations regarding health and prosperity. I used methods taught by Dr. Tag Powell, and Silvia Mind controll.

I used to be able to hypnotize myself and have dental work and fillings put in without novicane. I used to do that just to show myself it worked. And it did. I wouldnt do it today.

So self hypnosis with positive affirmations and AA. got me over the fear and on to a happy prosperous life.

Now 25 years out of the tower. I have allowed myself and thoughts to become somewhat corrupted.

I have gotten to the place of being an agnostic.

Which I cant blame on the witnesses. I wont blame it on anything.

But in reflection, I read the bible cover to cover 5 times and dayly for 15 years.

After all that somehow I find myself an agnostic. Which is not good.

Because based on my past experience and memory faith is the cure to fear.

And fear is at the base of most peoples problems.

Many people say there are only 2 base emotions which are covered by all other emotions.

Fear and Love.

Farkel

:Does Fear Rule Your Life ?

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Farkel

restrangled

Hey Flipper! Yes I live in fear daily.

I have this horrible "sense" when something is about to happen.....I mean major personal happenings not just day to day stuff. I am not concerned about an "Armegeddon scenerio"....never have been.

I seem to get messages about people I know....and yes everyone can laugh their asses off, but nothing has failed everytime I get the feeling.

My entire life I have had a fear of large black spiders......My father's death was based on him trying to kill a large black spider, he missed it, fell, and broke his hip. Thats when it was discovered he had bone cancer. Now I am not blaming the spider...Just the circumstances.

When I was visiting home a long time ago, my brother decided to make a motorcycle run the first nice evening in April, he was an expert rider, and owned a huge Harley. I jumped up and told my parent's you must stop him, something is not right......They didn't, and he died that same night. He wasn't riding his Harley but testing a friends and the chain snapped while he was going 80 mph.

I visited a cousin two years ago, that I had not seen in many years, it was a wonderful reunion and I told him that he must be extremely careful about riding his motorcycle, he assured me he all was ok but he died 6 months later on that bike.

Just recently I had horrible feelings that life was about to change for my husband and I. Sure enough, the man he has been contracting with over the last 15 years, died suddenly this Monday in his early 60's.of a heart attack.

These are just a few of the things I feel I have had warnings about.

Yes you can laugh, say I'm nuts, or say its just based on odds.

So what do I do, ignore these feelings or warn others as I receive them. Anyone's take on this is appreciated.

r.

VoidEater

My body (and mind) are habituated by fear. It doesn't rule my life, but it is my constant companion.

I do not fear God (in my times of belief, the God of my understanding has no demands). When I pretend God exists, I feel a lessening of the fear.

I am hypervigilent and fear I'm about to die. A bigger part of me knows it's not true. It's just the consequences of my childhood.

oompa

fear of failure....strong driving force that sucks your adrenal glands dry just a cc at a time........oompa

and fear of displeasing those you care about...fear of hurting them.....some times this can prevent you from ever existing

LouBelle

You start realising that you're only fearing the fear of a what if. You dip your baby toe in to suss it out, get accustomed to it and then it's your whole foot and before you know it you are no longer afraid of the words that the faith had you quivering at. You've experienced certain things for yourself, you have the freedom to think and make decisions.

For those that are more sure of their path they are grounded and nothing much can shake them because they know that there really is nothing to fear.

shopaholic

Fear does not rule my life as much as it used to but its still very present. I'm finally learning to live life on my terms. Most of my fear is around family and how they will respond when they find out that their super zealous pioneer has been inactive for a while now. But then I ask myself, what can they do, really, other than call and cry and plead. Its not like they are going to kill me. Its probably fear of having to explain myself to them.

I used to fear "worldly" people, but after going out with some a few times and having a really good time that fear is starting to go away. Not all non-JWs are buck-wild and drugged out. My social calender is more full now that it was when I was an active JW.

nvrgnbk

Fear of success.

"In fact, our very deepest fear is that when we really reclaim our power and succeed, we have to face the knowledge that we have always been powerful to change all along and that we could have changed a year or five or 10 years ago." Change comes from choice and we have always had that power.
Then you come face to face with the realization that we caused unnecessary suffering to ourselves and others along the way by our failure to change. And that suffering is not a necessary part of life.
http://psychologytoday.com/articles/pto-20031224-000001.xml

That says it pretty well.

hillbilly

they can kill me...but the cant eat me.

Fear..na. About the only fear I ever had was the fear of not trying. Trying with faliure sets on up for sucess later.

Hill

Carmel

Flipper,

Perhaps your total experiance with religion has been fear based. Mine has not. Not all religions fit your description, though many may.

Peace

carmel

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