I hear ya on the self confidence thing. I have been called brilliant by numerous people throughout my life. Pretty much everything I've tried, I've excelled at. Yet just this past year I had someone puzzle to me over why on earth I didn't believe in myself? Why was my self-confidence so low, when I can do anything, he wondered. And yes, I'm constantly told to quit apologizing.
I feel like I have to be perfect or I'll be rejected. Seriously, this is HUGE inside me. I live in abject FEAR of disappointing someone ... when I do I am CERTAIN that they will turn their back to me and walk away forever.
And of course I'm not perfect. So I live in constant fear.
This is a HUGE problem for me.
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