The #1 thing for me was stumbling upon a reference here to the book, "Crisis of Conscience" by Ray Franz!!!
While/after reading Ray's book the subconscience 'guilt' I had carried for almost 20 years just melted away.
I had been a subscriber to the WT & A and had noticed a stark difference in the 'tone' of the WT articles around the very early 80's; the
"LOVE" was gone.... because Ray was gone.... and I only learned of the connection upon getting my first computer in '02 and finding this wonderful site here (JWD). I havn't looked back since and every day now is appreciated and enjoyed to the fullest.
Judy