HOT DANG!.............i did not know i was so frikkin NORMAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...............................letting go is a wish...and ya...much harder with wife and family still hoodwinked...........oompa
how much has your EXIT consumed you?????
by oompa 29 Replies latest jw friends
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Meeting Junkie No More
Oompa - It's all consuming. 24/7 - I read this site constantly; don't always comment, but read voraciously. Religious history; anything to do with the Bible, gospels of every description, canonical or not; it's all just so damn fascinating - so much more so than when I was in. Back when I had all the answers, JWism was so ridiculously boring. Read, underline, comment, field circus, rinse, repeat. Since I quit the meetings, I have had the time to collect and compare umpteen Bibles and lo and behold, they're not all the same. They're all DIFFERENT!
I share your obsessiveness. The family, however, doesn't to the extent that I do, so I'm now the 'religious nut' in the household because I'm always spouting about the latest discovery I've made in relation to this or that doctrine; this or that translation of a scripture or JW teaching. All in good fun, of course. In bashing all the falsities/incongruities we came to accept in this religion (in which we were more or less born-in), we all do our share of laughing and commiserating. I've been lucky to find other like-minded individuals to hang out with (both fringe JWs and worldlies), so this is actually a topic we talk a great deal about. Probably all part of the ongoing recovery. I don't know if it will ever get better, but my TRUE FRIENDS are putting up with it, so all is good!
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sooner7nc
MJNM's right. I find any thing about JWs much more intriguing for me than before, and when I analyze that bit of myself, it drives me crazy. I should be able to let it go, but it's like smoke from a campfire. It's gonna find it's way into your eyes sooner or later, and probably sooner. I think that the problem may be knowing the "Rightness of our cause", which is how I sometimes feel about what I know to be true, has caused me to have sort of a tunnel vision. Hopefully, it will get better with time.
sooner7nc
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SnakesInTheTower
I dont obsess. I couldnt care less about the UN, pyramids, or any of the multitude of flip flops over the years. I do care that many people are wasting their lives in the Organization. My mom is a prime example.
She was preyed upon by special pioneers 40 years ago/....although I will never fault them individually...they were not trying to hurt anyone. That is what I realize...very few JWs are actually trying to victimize others. They are just along for the ride. The few power hungry elders, MS, elderettes would still be abusive, power hungry individuals if they were not JWs. They would just find a different group of people to mess with. I cannot pull the rug out from under my mom after 4 decades. If she wants to spend her retirement years regular pioneering (without signing the paper), that is her social network...go for it. It could be worse...she could be an alcoholic (more than she might be now), or a gambling addict, or a druggie.... and I know her "efforts" in field circus are but a blip. She has never brought anyone "in"... mostly she "studies" with others who are lonely...the elderly mostly....
The pedophile thing bothers me the most. I cannot do anything about it. There are people (Silent Lambs, SNAP) and others who have been after WTBTS a lot longer than my exit time.... I will leave it to those experts to keep after the WT. I have nothing useful to contribute.
I dont actively go after WT. I dont submit my DA letter because I do not believe in their JC system. If they want to DF me that's up to them. I only care if they do because I am still in a town with a few inactive dubs that associate with me. It is more about not hurting them than about me. Once I move away, game over.
If I can help someone else that is trying to leave, I will. Someone else helped me.
I am on here nearly every day. JWS occasionally.... I go through spurts of posting. One day I may just stop. Today is not that day.
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jaguarbass
I've been out since 83.
I was consumed in the 80's.
Now its just entertainment.
It was a part of my life that will never go away.
Religion is entertainment for everybody its something they do when they have too
much time on their hands.
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Iwonder17
I also have been brought up in it and it consumes my family.
I am at the point where I could care less ( except for the child abuse ) but the only thing that bothers me is when I with my family and they have to talk about their experiences in the feild circuis or how brutha and sista so and so are doing and that god has blessed them blah blah blah.
I try to just shut my mouth or walk away. Not because I am mad, it's because I am sad that they are wasting their lives.
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no more kool aid
My immediate family and I have been out for less than a year. It's still fresh, I still don't know what will happen to us (DF ?). This will be our first year not going to the memorial. It is our first set of holidays, for instance I was buying valentines for my children and I'm looking over my shoulder. Our families are still in and we were born in. Yes, I am obsessed, it's always right on the surface.
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oompa
kool aid....oh do i relate...but you may want to go to the sunday meeting after the memorial just to make a statement....i did....just to let everyone know.....IF I HAD WANTED TO BE AT THE MEMORIAL FREAKPASSTHECRAPFEST.....that i could have been.....they did not even invite me....nor call me since then...and i have even reached out THREE TIMES to elder friends of mine....not a single damm phone call even to "assist me"........cause they know they have no answers.......................oompa
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dinah
Oomps, you dont need their "assistance" anymore.
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Twitch
completely
and then I was reborn
but not like you might think,....;)