"Man, I always felt like a complete idiot!! Dressing up in a suit riding around with a carload of other "Stoopid" people speaking "Stoopid" shit! WTF was I thinking???"
LMAO!
by Quirky1 25 Replies latest jw friends
"Man, I always felt like a complete idiot!! Dressing up in a suit riding around with a carload of other "Stoopid" people speaking "Stoopid" shit! WTF was I thinking???"
LMAO!
Ever since I was a young child, I used to feel tight in my stomach and nauseous with headaches because I felt weird. I thought I knew it was the "truth" but I still felt very uncomfortable, especially seeing children in my class and they'd ask what I was doing. I remember being at the door and a man said to my mom "how can you make your children do this?! at 9 in the morning dragging them out here?!!!" I felt so sad for my mom and felt like I was being persecuted by the worldly. Now I am ever so grateful he said that.
I liked it only when we accomplished nothing. Those days when people had errands to run, we kept driving past the house, or no one was home were better--and I especially liked when no one showed up for field circus.
What I hated was, when it was 5 minutes before quitting time, I would get stuck on someone else's call or door, and they would keep the call going for a couple of hours after to force me to get more time on my slip. Staying out longer than I expected was definitely not my idea of spending the afternoon wisely.
I most certainly felt stupid. The way everything was done was stupid. I hated going out in service. I had a scripture
that I used all the time, 1 cor 9:16,17. I told told a lot of the brothers the scripture and it became very popular.
It proved that most of the brothers felt the same as I did . I could just never understand how anyone in their
right mind would enjoy service or meetings.
I never liked it but when I was new to the truth (I love saying that. It sounds so stupid) I thought I was delivering a life saving message so it seemed like I was doing the right thing. The easest it ever was was in the early 70's when they had that special tract work (what ever it was called) where they tried to create a sense of urgency about the end being near by having us rush through our territory rapidly knocking on doors and handing out tracts but not getting into any conversations because the end was near and we had to cover as much ground as possible. Not long after this time period I remember envying a friend of mine who stopped going out in service and instead was going surfing on Saturday mornings with my then brother-in-law who I'd introduced him to who wasn't a Witness. My brother-in-law would referred my friend in good humor as "Backsliding Bob". I kept on going door knocking but I think it was the begining of the end. I was getting bored with the whole thing. Then I got married and after a while started having doubts and depression and stopped going out in service completely. The funny thing was that when I went to see an elder about my problem one of the things he recommended as a cure was to go out in service. This seemed to me like WC Fields advice for curiing ensomnia...."get plenty of sleep".
As I've mentioned before but I'm always amazed at the body language I see on Witness when I see them out in service. If they walked any slower they'd be going backwards. The kids look bored to death and I often notice that there heads are hanging low. Other churhes have things like ball games and trips to the beach for kids on the weekends. These poor WT kids are out in suits handing out magazine living in fear of meeting someone they know from school.
VERY !
I just 'prayed hard' that everybody would be out,
if they were in; I hadn't a clue what I was supposed to say.
Now; there is no way I could direct even my worst enemy towards a KH.
As I have now 'found the elders out'; just a bunch of lying idiots.
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