Hi
Feeling guilty already about being on here, the familiar words are recalled in my mind "Don't go on any Jehovah's Witness websites except 'Watchtower.org'!"
So here I am, desperate for some help. I'm 21 and have been studying for 2 years, I was made an unbaptised publisher in February and it was all going great until I had a problem with getting a little tipsy, the elders had to come scrape me off the floor of my witness friends house and take me home. Not baptised so cannot get into major trouble for that. Been going downhill for about a month since, lost all faith in Jehovah and the organization, but luckily I have some worldly friends who are keeping me sane.
And now for the big one! I slept with a guy on sunday night. The guilt and the pain that followed made me tell the elders and here I am two days later, desperate for some help and support from any ex JWs who have had the same guilt tripping. I have a meeting with them on saturday, so any questions I can put to them will be gratefully received.
I don't know where else to turn to, as I was a sitting duck for their love bombing as I came out of school and was diagnosed with clinical depression, so I left the 'world' and was sucked in. I am now feeling left and alone because my study conductor is not speaking to me (a kind of shunning to make me come to my senses) and the elders only answer at the moment is prayer and study.
Thanks for reading