To C.T. Russell and others. I guess I should give some background. My father was never a Witness, and of course I was raised being taught that he was worldly, and had worldly wisdom.
I thought I needed a spiritual father figure. I didn't really get one as a young boy. When I was 19, I applied for Bethel and was rejected. Don't know why. Then, a year later, I was at a Kingdom Ministry School for elders and servants. Brother Jaracz was there, and he was talking about the new Ministerial Training School. I went up to him after and I asked about Gilead. He said, "MTS is the school for you." He seemed to me at the time genuninely interested in me and my "theocratic future." I was very motivated. I applied to MTS and was accepted. Then brother Jaracz came to our MTS class, and gave a couple of talks. I reminded him of his encouragement a couple of years previous, and he said, "Jehovah knows where to put us." He congratulated me on my having received a missionary assignment at such a young age and said that the future of younger missionaries rides on the reputation of current younger missionaries.
It was a couple of years later while visiting Bethel from my assignment that he said hello to me by name in the Bethel hallway. I guess as a young person, and his GB status, I was very impressed.
A few years later, I saw him again at a convention, I didn't have my badge on. He said, "Let's see, I know you are in Central America, I am trying to remember where." I was impressed again that he remembered me, and I talked about the growth in my assignment.
Later, when I needed some medical attention in NY, I called his office all the way from my missionary assignment. I don't know why I did that, I spoke to his secretary, who put me on hold. Then he said he would call another office, but for me to call them tomorrow. My medical attention was approved, they paid for me get a ticket to NY, and a Bethel driver picked me up. They paid for everything, actually, all of YOUR CONTRIBUTIONS paid for everything. When I was recuperating, and I felt fine, I offered to work at Bethel while waiting to go back to my assignment. The office told me not to worry about it, just enjoy the time off for a month.
So although I know he is responsible for so much suffering, I have learned a lot of his real personality lately. I was one of those who actually was treated well for the most part by the Society, at least as far as privileges were concerned. And personally by brother Jaracz as well, at least as far as I seemed to do well in my assignment.
I really think he thought he was Jehovah's instrument on earth. He thought that all of the problems and complaining were going to be solved soon by Jehovah, so why worry now? Why make changes to the Organization now? Jehovah is behind everything. He was delusional I think.
Anyway, that's why I said those things about him. I recognize the damage he has caused to so many, although not personally.
BF
