the propaganda of this site is very strongly anti-witness so your dealing with a lot of intense confliction and reality that is we are just ordinary people who worship our God Jehovah through his son Jesus christ
For once, Reniaa, I half way agree with you. The rank and file among the jws do believe that they are worshipping God through Christ. But unfortunately, they aren't fully aware of the abuse that occurs within the congregation or the organization's cruel indifference to it. The WB&TS covered up and ignored me when I was a molested child and a battered wife and then threw me away when I was running for my life. If jws ever come to my door, I will tell them the same. After all, there are many women and children in their congregation who have suffered or will suffer the very same fate. If the jws ever choose to come to my door with their version of the "good news", I feel obligated to share the real truth with them.
That being said, the only contact I've had with non-family jws were elders that came to my door several years ago when I lived in another town and had a different last name. I was creeped out, because they asked for me by name. I told them I wasn't interested in returning and advised them to stay away from my home for their own safety, as my fiance felt very protective of me. Having never been a jw, he thought all jw men were child molesters, wife beaters, or both.
Thanks to most of you guys on this board, I am no longer fearful and feel like a survivor rather than a victim. And my husband realizes that not all jws are whackos but that the smart ones learn to resist the mind control and live their own lives.