I am an active JW. I was born in the "truth" (I really feel uncomfortable calling it that) and am now married to a witness.
For a year now, I have actually come to see that the GB are just business-psychologists. Anyone who views Jehovah's Witnesses as a religion and not a cult, really needs to evaluate their way of thinking and they also need to look up the definition of the word "cult".
Anyway, my parents recently came over on holiday (they live in another country and are also residents of Bethel). I explained some of my doubts to my father. For example, I explained to him that the whole story about this Noah chap was complete tosh. I went onto explain that it would have been impossible for all the animals involved to have travelled such distances especially as most of them live on specific diets that can only be found in their own habitat.
My father kindly noted that we don't know the ins and outs of Jehovah's thinking. Fair enough; doctors are also still baffled at Charles Manson's reasoning to.
My parents contacted my elders just before they flew home and told them that I may be turning in an apostate (thanks a lot mum & dad, I really owe you one).
Two elders arranged to meet with me this week. I ran the same argument by them. I was told that Jehovah must have used a miracle, and countless miracles to have allowed such a thing to happen (Noah's ark). I told them that if that was the case, and Jehovah used miracles, surely the bible would have said something.
Goodness me, they didn't like that! "Your thinking is in line with apostates", was their response. I continued. We read the "God is love" scripture at my request. I asked;
"How can Jehovah be a God of love if he allowed millions of animals to die during the flood?". The following was their response;
"Maybe Jehovah doesn't view animals the way we do. Maybe it's our imperfection kicking in that makes us love them."
You what??!! Did I just hear right??? I couldn't help myself.
I've been lucky enough to have watched the Watchtower Comments videos (thanks V; I also have a sneaky suspicion of who you are and if I am right, then "Like to get to Sesame Street" may inform you of who I am) and so I started to bombard them with questions. None could be answered.
In the end, I was told that if I make my doubts public knowledge, a judicial would need to be arranged as it is a very serious sin to speak of and question the GB.
At that point, I asked them to leave.
I am now working on my wife. She has started to open her mind and I can see her seeing the wood through trees sometime soon.