damm it is awful.....and it is awful what i have put her through the past two years......so many tears, screams, walkouts, and even two brutal slaps on the chops...(all by her to me btw....although i have shed plenty of tears too).....just awful.......i so wish i could have just shut tf up.....but that is me.....vocal.....real.......open......we have been apart for awhile.......and i think that helped us both......i think she will now respect my non-jw life.....even though she will not be around my non jw friends ...give and take....and i will let her tread water in her cult.
otwo helped me so much...and others too with the one in one out thingy.........it is tough.....thanks wings, and bonzzo and olin moyles and redred rose........and jk.........and otwo......and [email protected] rodney.i will dance with you anytime!!)...and newlite and hubby robert7 and......flip...and ya...my first nemisis.......OUTLAW!!!........and any other i may have slighted..........
now if i can just kick this nightly booze thing......really worried i cannot.....this past two years has really taken a toll on me....and sorry guys.....my method of coping was to just go into the bottle....i so want to break this horrible trap i am in with it........i cant seem to sleep without it.....i saw a post from an England bro recently ........dry for a year........i did that once for 11 months 4 years ago......i really think that if i can get off the bottle......i may not obsess so much about our changed/altered/fraudulent bible.........damm that messed me up....htf can we actually CHANGE THE BIBLE TO MAKE IT SAY WHAT WE WANT IT TOO!!!!!...........but i am a raised in fourth generation dub........and that does make things a bit complicated.......it was my entire life............if you dont know.....you prob never will..........................................oompa