Hello highdose and welcome aboard!
My view is this, the problems you have had are not uncommon for those who have been JWs, stick around here and you will see. Also, the more you see here the less likely you will be to ever want to go back. Try to cut the medication down or out. It numbs the pain but I think you are discovering the root cause of it. Better to deal with the cause, not the effect.
Jesus said this
John 10:10 (New International Version)
10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
Obviously, the abundant life Jesus mentions hasn't panned out with the JWs. Mind you, no surprise to me, they are nothing to do with the real Jesus.
All the best,
Stephen