Tiny bit lost (page 4)

Daft Fader

one thing i will say is my ears were tickled for 29 years but my soul left empty reniaa

Daft Fader

one thing i will say is my ears were tickled for 29 years but my soul left empty reniaa

Mr. Majestic

one thing i will say is my ears were tickled for 29 years but my soul left empty reniaa

Duplicate post or not, that was worth saying twice…..

Welcome to the forum……

sweet pea

Most of us on here are not anti-JW's - I still love them all, regardless of how we've been treated. It's the organisation masquerading as a loving religion that we've got issues with.

I must admit, whilst I was a JW I did feel a failure most of the time - never enough ministry, never enough personal study, fell for a few blokes that weren't witnesses (although never went the whole way...), my halo was very tarnished LOL. I hated the constant feeling of failing to measure up and the exhausting routine of being a JW but never realised there was a way out.

Finding out the truth about the organisation freed me from feelings of guilt and failure. I think if you leave without knowing the whole story (even though the thought of finding out what's really behind the curtain is terrifying to many) then it's more difficult to deal with the legacy of having been a JW.

Don't be scared of the facts.

Dagney

Me neither, I'm not anti-JW. I deal with them, family and friends, daily. They know I have "issues with the corporation." Annnd, they do NOT want to know why or what.

So it is what it is.

I felt like I was always swimming upstream, every meeting demanding more and more. And I knew I was really okay in my life...I was sincere and "fruitful" (sigh) in my ministry, I worked hard, took care of family members, was a good friend...but feeling beat up meeting after meeting after meeting.

Remember, "life is to be lived, and love is important." ~ Tina Turner

Diva

Hi and Welcome

I was born a JW but began fading two years ago , along with my JW husband. Sadly I still have close family in the org, so my fade may never be complete. As a result I sometimes have moments of sheer panic, thinking that maybe it would be easier if I continued being a JW and living a lie. That way the criticism, judging and condemnation from certain family members would stop.

However, I remember that this is MY life, I made the decision to leave JW's based on sound, rational, well thought out research and reasoning. And what I saw of the double standards of the organisation, the lies, the false doctrines and the hypocrisy was enough to make me realise that IT IS NOT THE TRUTH. Finding that out caused me, and still does, anger and pain.

There is no way now that I could ever sit in a Kingdom Hall and listen to same old garbage wrapped up in a different parcel, to make it seem like 'new light', or promote the org on the ministry - ever again!

I'm not a prolific poster, as you can see. But I often lurk - it's encourgaing to read stories of others who have come through the other side and the journeys, often filled with pain and tears, to get there.

I hope you'll continue to post here - it's lovely having you on board.

Diva x

dogisgod

Dear Daft, Welcome. The people here were a life saver for me after being out of the borg. You have been thru a LOT of LOSS and dissappointment. I think you are smart and just need some confidence in making choices which finding the right counselor can help with. If you miss a "meeting place" you might try Unitarian/Universalis. Great group of educated people, many free self growth programs, no dogma or heirarchy. xoxo

dogisgod

Dear Daft, Welcome. The people here were a life saver for me after being out of the borg. You have been thru a LOT of LOSS and dissappointment. I think you are smart and just need some confidence in making choices which finding the right counselor can help with. If you miss a "meeting place" you might try Unitarian/Universalis. Great group of educated people, many free self growth programs, no dogma or heirarchy. xoxo

chicken little

Welcome DF...you are not daft!! When someone writes about their experiences and they are really tough, I am amazed that the first thing one person can say is....you can always have a refresher study with the same organization that caused you the pain....amazing like putting yourself back into the fire.

You are feeling like so many that left without examining the religion they belonged to critically. Once you have done that then any lurking ideas that it just might be the "truth" are gone.

The peace of mind that comes is truly incredible. No more bad dreams, sick stomach when the news is bad, bad feelings when "friends" try to encourage you back. It all goes away.

I know after 45years in from a toddler, and now free from it all the last two years.

Keep on learning more.

Love

Chicken little

oompa

daft......thank you for joining and esp for that incredibe hot babe ad you made pop up by your post!!!

sounds like your story should be on oprah.....as should mine and so many others here.....you are not alone and it does take quite a while to get it all sorted out.....some never do.......some need lots of therapy........i had some and could use a lot more........welcome, and one thing is for sure.....you will continure to be amazed at how many of us are out there......and this place and others just seems to make you feel better by knowing you are not alone.................oompa

((((((((((((daft)))))))))))))..........that is a hug here.....i dont do them often

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