After leaving the "organization" I read as much forbidden stuff as I could get my hands on. I wondered if I might lose my belief in God altogether, as many here have.
It finally came down to whether or not I believed Jesus was a real person, died & resurrected. If he wasn't, then pooey on it all. After researching both secular and scriptural sources, I concluded he had, indeed, been born, died & was resurrected. I needed some evidence to have faith. Jesus himself performed miracles to give evidence of who he was. He didn't say "Hey, Im the Messiah cause I said so." he backed up his words with tangable evidence. I see nothing wrong with asking to see some evidence.
Where I may differ from other Christians, is that I focus on Jesus & his sayings as the "Word of God", not necessarily the whole new testament, because I believe the apostles & their associates did their best to write down what happened to the best of their recollection, but they were people just like us who make mistakes.
It kind of bugs me that some say a person was never a christian to begin with , if they left. Reminds me of the jws who were shocked after 22 years that I would ever leave, then have them say " She was never one of us" I don't claim to understand it all, thats just my humble opinion.
I could be wrong, but it wouldn't be the first time.