Can you be more specific on your conclusions about me, and also on what you think I will change? (you must have an idea of what I already am, and what I will change into, to make that statement)
I have no conclusions to base on you other then what you write, which goes for all of us. As this is a public forum centered around JW's and former JW's, unless we try to meet, that is all any of us can do. Do I think you can or will change? I believe you will. Will it be your thinking? Will you become more open or close minded? Those are questions all of us will answer with the decisions we make in our lives.
What drew me to your posts are some questions you have raised. If you only want people who claim a certain understanding or study as you claim to have undertaken, so be it. This statement by you was what caused me to talk to you as I did.
If you have no idea what I'm talking about, then question doesn't apply to you as I feel it's information that is only understood at the right time and to those allowed to get understanding of it.
I have no desire to debate you or otherwise argue with you. If you feel that this "understanding" is a timing issue in people's lives, that is a theory others hold to as well. But the fact you refer to this understanding as something some are "allowed" to get while others are not allowed is troublesome.
It was with this idea that you EOM may be allowed to understand while others aren't that caused me to address you as I have. I am sure you are well aware that there are tens of thousands, millions perhaps, who feel god talks with them, grants them understandings, so on and so forth. As an active member of this forum, I was hinting at the possibility that you will realize that understanding is not linked to what one is allowed to learn, but instead, to what they are willing to investigate, and to be honest about the facts that are found.
There are those who feel that god must deal with a small people exclusively. They are sick of this world. It is crooked, evil, and beyond repair to them. They pray for god to destroy all of them. They are convinced that god must see things as they do, that as god is righteous, so must we be. That god has revelations to show, but to only those small few "allowed" to do so.
I have had my fill of such mental filth. I came from a group where the leadership claimed exactly that. You don't even qualify as a religion or a prophet. You ask mysterious questions, implying class distinctions, and then hope to ward off those who would point out that at best, you are a mysterioius internet poster who isn't even able to make himself clear?
Good answers only come with good questions. I hope you are able to improve. To me, it sounds like you believe in a whole bunch of items that are not proveable. To that, I can only say it can only be good enough for you. I am on the record to say that I disagree with your premise. Your answer can't be correct when the question is wrong in the first place.
I will not rain on your parade anymore, other then to encourage you to be intellectually honest, and to say that I hope your beliefs and questionings are with the end goal of making you a better person and neighbor, instead of trying to make yourself feel better and superior to others whom you evidentally disdain.